A song
December 8, 2014
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Winds of Change
December 3, 2014
So many memories recalled this Thanksgiving. The laughing times....the joy..diminished..longing for the Happy moments..Eric ...So, so missed...Oh how he loved Thansgiving.
But the Best Feast is yet to come..
and so ..Eric sends another song, as he always does when we miss his presense. When we feel the sadness, He lets us know he's with us..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOH8t25vO2c
As Long as I Breathe
November 15, 2014
As long as I Breathe
As Long as I remain here
Without My Son
I will Reveal Truth and Fight for Justice..
....and take the Ugly Machine apart....
and I know...who...feels the same...
For ERIC....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SL8ZRUDVd-I
Big "E"
November 10, 2014
....."I am the beginning of the End, the End of every placE. I am the beginning of Eternity, the End of timE and spacE."
Big "E"
Angel With the Angels
November 4, 2014
" I see the Sun rise up in your Eyes
Another Sun starts to fall
We're at Goodbye but not the End...NO
Have NO FEAR"
....he sends another..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6lSMbgOPKQ
truth
October 27, 2014
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Eric's about the truth. Good and bad. Honesty and integrity, passion and love. He also had disappointment, heartbreak, and fears like everyone else. Those are a big parts of Eric. I've known him a long time, went through a lot together and apart. No matter where we were in life at that moment, we always had each other. Our connection is beyond this life. I'll see him again.
Posting on here about him and any and everything that is Eric, is what this memorial is for. He loves it, he loves being thought of, he loves being talked about,he loves people sharing memories and he loves that messages are shared amongst us. All who know Eric, know him. They know all of this.They know his heart. They feel his soul, his energy. Some of us know more of him, pieces of him that reached out and grabbed hold of pieces of us. They still do. He lingers, the feeling, hes still here. I talk to him, I dream of him. It's a pretty crazy experience. But so is Eric, so it makes sense.
Eric confided a lot in me. His honesty played a major role in that. He didn't keep secrets. At times, I had to let it marinate in my head for a day (or year or two). I never second guessed him. Only myself.
When I make a statement on here, I have been feeling something that needed to be said or was given something that needs to be expressed, not only for me, but for others.
Nobody is going to tell me what to say, think or feel about Eric. He's ok with it . If you feel threatened or offended, maybe theres an underlying issue you need to address with your conscience.
Waiting
October 24, 2014
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cA93StaYDFk
He'll be waiting with his "Arms wide open" for the ones who are part of his soul family. This song has dual meaning for us.
1) He will be waiting when it's our time to go, no hurry, he's our destined guide.
2) He's also referring to his son, little Eric. Despite the relationship he was never given the chance to have with him, he guides him and is with him always. They have that soul connection. Nobody can ever take that away. It's a soul thing. Not being given the chance to be with his son, really created a void in his heart and his life. Now he can visit and check in on him whenever he wants. Nobody can prevent or control it.
Autumn Leaves
October 16, 2014
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The Essense of Eric
October 6, 2014
I previously posted these writings before from Eric. But I was reminded again of them today when a video came to my attention...It was sent to me.
Eric always said "Nothing is a coincidence".
It came at a time of great distress and anxiety. So I knew it was meant for me...for All of us.
The "Darkness" in this World seeks to destroy those who have the "Light"
And so I know Eric approves of the attached video...
He comes through again and again to comfort those who are close to his Heart.
Which is the true meaning of "Neighbor"...Neigh=NEAR
BOR=OBODE=The Ancient word for "HEART"..
Written April 25, 2012
"Just concentrate on Love~and Know... Love IS the Idea ~ The Ultimate Expression wanting to come forth.
Even Scary or Ugly is an opportunity for Love- Ugly is Illusion~
Polar Consciousness is the Illusion~
All is One~
Pray for ALL of them- THEY need YOU
The MOMENT IS LOVE - the "PAST IS the PAST"
and also~
"Masks of identities are always changing in a Temporal World of need and demand, but remember within each disguised, is the Truth we All seek...
and to see yourself in All things is to realize the HERE and NOW is the PORTAL of TIMELESS SPACE". = Eternity
Love ERIC
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TDvJ7DK9Vck
A MAN WEARING MY SHOES
September 25, 2014
...AND A MAN WEARING NIKE'S WITH "OHIO STATE" COLORS...
size 12.5 ?
SAME SIZE AS ERIC ?
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE....AND SO DO WE......
........" A man in my shoes runs a light
And all the papers lied tonight"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpJFmIE3avk
September 18, 2014
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A song
September 10, 2014
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September 5, 2014
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You are always in my thoughts, always. Throughout the day, I am occupied with a lot of things, but, then at night I'm alone in silence, you consume my mind. You are all I think of.
Little Talks
August 28, 2014
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777
August 22, 2014
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On Tuesday, this number was sent to us. Not just one person. Eric made it a point for us to see/hear it.
Creative expression, Optimism, Introspection, Tolerance, Inspiration, On the right path-You have made the discovery, now it is up to you how you will continue with that knowledge/realization/insight.
777 = 3
BROKEN WINGS
August 19, 2014
Forever Young
August 19, 2014
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August 13, 2014
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August 13, 2014
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My heart will be broken until the day I die. I am still searching, still trying to reason, still asking "why". No matter how much time passes, no matter what answers I have been given, no answer can help me understand. The void this has left, will never be filled in.That's understandable if you really know Eric.My mind thinks logicaly, it puts doubt in what I feel at times. In my heart , there's a myriad of possibilities. Illogical thinking, possibilities/impossibilities,It wants what it wants, it has no patience. Thinking, wondering, hoping,longing.
If this were to have happened to me, Eric would have blown this memorial up expressing love,songs, letters, poems, dreams....you'd feel it in his words, you'd feel his soul. He's that powerful. He sends songs, sometimes repetitively, and that tells me I need to put it out there. This one, it was only sent to me once, but has meaning. When I ask for a sign, Eric sends one, and it blows me away.
So here's an 80's love song just for Eric ♥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WR58N3ak5Q
3333 !!
July 27, 2014
A Note from A Classmate
July 27, 2014
In response to an assignment, a classmate, who had chosen Eric, wrote him this note. I believe it was the 4th or 5th Grade.
And I can say that this quality in Eric would be consistent through his Life.
It was not about what he did...but the way he made you feel...Feelings is what he was about...
...and we miss Him so much ...as NO ONE UNDERSTOOD like OUR ERIC...
July 25, 2014
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I miss you
July 23, 2014
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I wish you were here Eric❤️ Everything now is about how much I love and miss you and all that reminds me of you. Memories, music, pictures, letters, dreams... That's what I have Til I see you again. Keep them coming ❤️
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=S6Cc5uLTlXU
Nothing Else Matters
July 22, 2014
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July 9, 2014
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When I must leave you for a while
Please do not grieve and shed wild tears
And hug your sorrow to you through the years
But start out bravely with a gallant smile
And for my sake and in my name
Live on and do all the things the same
Feed not your lonliness on empty days
But fill each working hour in useful ways
Reach out your hand in comfort and in cheer
And I in turn will comfort you and hold you near
And never, never be afraid to die
For I am waiting for you in the sky.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qXMlfdY54IM
WON'T GIVE UP !
June 27, 2014
Eagle
June 7, 2014
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41
May 27, 2014
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" I am so happy that your mom liked your dad enough to have you".
Thats what he told me. I feel the same about him. Never having Eric in my life would have been unfathomable.
Today, 41 years ago he was introduced into the world. Because of him, my world will never be the same. Unconditional love, understanding, wit, humor, intellect like no other, conversation that stays with me even to this day, debates,arguments( and his response/reactions). He left me questioning even myself. He helped me understand. Some of the understanding came later, but it was still because of him. He is my conscience. He is always with me.
I love you Eric ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Happy Birthday.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Ddc0-vveMA
A BIRTHDAY REMEMBRANCE
May 27, 2014
ON THIS DAY OF YOUR BIRTH...THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DAY OF YOUR MOTHER'S LIFE..I AM SO THANKFUL FOR YOU...MY BEAUTIFUL LOVING, GIVING SON...ERIC
GONE FROM THIS PLACE OF HARDNESS...YOUR STONES REMIND ME..
YOUR PRESENCE....ALWAYS IN MY HEART.....
LOVE YOU NOW...
ALWAYS IN THE NOW..
THE PORTAL OF TIMELESSNESS...
IN THE GLOW OF LOVE =HOME... ...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rlF6I0eX_p4
May 22, 2014
Another thing I want people to know is Eric, if you told him some very personal shit, woud never throw it back in your face. He never once did this to me, and we had some rough patches. That is pretty rare.
May 21, 2014
Eric was a force of nature, a geist of spirit. We lost our anchor. Eric was someone who made you feel better about your place in life by just having him around. I want people to understand what a great sense of humor Eric had. It was this sophisticated wit that always found out the subtext of the situation. Eric was someone who could look through you, figure out your motivations, laugh about how foolhardy they were, and love you anyway.
MIss you Eric
May 15, 2014
by * *
For Someone
May 4, 2014
A POEM ~FOR EASTER
April 20, 2014
A Poem was sent to me today. It kept coming into my mind yesterday afternoon. Then again before I fell into sleep and then it was my first thought when I awoke.That's how it works...a thought that comes out of the ether. An inspiration not of your own design..but an extension of our Earthly communication. It was familiar..I knew it..I have not seen it for a very long time..and So...He will repeat it over and over until I do what I'm suppose to do..That is..post it to this Memorial... Happy Easter!
HOW DO I LOVE THEE ?
Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of being and ideal grace. I love thee to the level of every day's Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for right. I love thee purely, as they turn from praise. I love thee with the passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after Death.......
........by~Elizabeth Barrett Browning
April 18, 2014
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Erics smile and laugh is Beautiful
Follow your heart
April 17, 2014
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I know.
April 13, 2014
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You Know Who You Are
March 27, 2014
These Are For You...and we are waiting..you know what you must do...
and yeah...Eric sent them...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_gjUNdjBd3Q
Wasting Time..it will never go away...ever
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PyxLaHmOaYM
Wish you were here...
March 27, 2014
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A DOVE IS SENT
March 24, 2014
A DOVE IS SENT TO COMMEMORATE A JOYOUS EVENT ON 3/15/2014 !
March 20, 2014
by * *
Death is nothing at all.
I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
That, we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.
Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?
I am but waiting for you.
For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.
All is well.
March 18, 2014
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For the Irish in You My Loved One
March 17, 2014
The Butterfly
March 16, 2014
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❤️
March 14, 2014
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I am Always thinking of you Eric. Not just today. Always Til I see you again ❤️
11
March 11, 2014
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Vision.Awareness.Duality.Justice.Equality.Integrity.Balance.Insight.Transformation.Highest Vibration.Sensitivity. The power of creative manifestation.Spirituality.
11 symbolizes the physical form merging with the invisible energies of imagination, creativity, inspiration, belief, and desire.
March 3, 2014
Fire and rain
It has been a year today since I got news on my lost. Eric This is to you. Man this isnt cool, I need are connection, you always grounded me. You understood everything that came flying out of my mouth, no matter how crazy it seemed. The light of life you shared gave me enough spark to get me going again. Your timeing was perfect every time. I still cant think of you being gone, I tell myself it just for now, Me and you talk about this day we would face and we laugh and told jokes about it, I remember everything we talk about, but it isnt that funny and it getting harder. Love you soul Thank you for being my soul body, my newphew, and my friend. I wont say good bye, because we both know it not, but I sure miss you and I will love you forver.
...........
March 3, 2014
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3/3
March 2, 2014
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"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."
3/3 is tomorrow. 3/3 is "THE" day he was taken from us. . He's communicated it.
I miss his smile, I miss his big brown eyes and curly eyelashes, I miss his voice, I miss his humor, I miss his compassion, I miss his perseverance, I miss his stories, I miss his thoughts, I miss his hopes and dreams, I miss his mind. What do I miss most? All of the possibilities that won't happen in this life with him, all that would have been. That was taken away. For what? What did they gain? Money? Power? It'll come to light. Some already has. What he possessed was not anything you could buy, even though people tried. They were envious, jealous. Eric was very trusting, compassionate, open, full of light. He was sought out and used. Taken advantage of. It hurt him deeply and that affected many aspects of his life. How do they feel living a lie? Before you know it, this life will be over. You'll be 77 on the verge of death. You'll go to church and ask for forgiveness so you "move on to the next level" when you pass. That's out of fear because you know what you did. The end is near for you. I think people are under the impression that they can move on and up in the next level of existence no matter what they do in this one. It's not the case. Karma. Reincarnation. Some move down and deep into the darkness. So if you think that a"man of God will help you on your way to an eternity of bliss, you're in for a treat.
Yes, I'm angry, I'm disappointed, heartbroken , and a thousand other emotions.
No, we don't have the possibilities we had before, but I have memories, pictures, emails and letters to reflect on. Inside jokes, family stories, fun times, hopes and dreams. Of course bad times too, absence, regret, pain and tears. No matter the amount of time that passed, we always picked up where we left off. He is the only one who understood and knew me. He still is. Our connection. I was lucky. He is my best friend, the only one who knows. Twin flames. We will be together again. He's still here with me.
He makes his presence known with songs, his spirit ( yes, I feel him), I talk to him, I think of him always, I toast to him. He's here with me. He always was. He shared everything with me, even painful truths. ALL OF IT.
Sometimes I feel like he'll be back. He's off somewhere, returning soon. Vacation. But when I sit and have time alone to think, I lose my breath knowing he's not. My mind knows, but my heart doesn't. It still hopes.
3/3. It will always be that day.
I miss you Eric.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Mama you been on my mind...
March 2, 2014
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"Mama, You've Been On My Mind"
Perhaps it's the color of the sun cut flat
An' cov'rin' the crossroads I'm standing at,
Or maybe it's the weather or something like that,
But mama, you been on my mind.
I don't mean trouble, please don't put me down, don't get upset,
I am not pleading or saying that "I can't forget you."
I do not walk the floor bowed down and bent, but yet,
Mama, you been on my mind.
Even though my mind is hazy and my thoughts they might be narrow,
Where you been don't bother me nor bring me down in sorrow.
I don't even mind who you'll be waking with tomorrow,
But mama, you're just on my mind.
I am not askin' you to say words like "yes" or "no,"
Please understand me, I have no place I'm callin' you to go.
I'm just whispering to myself so I can pretend that I don't know,
Mama, you been on my mind.
When you wake up in the mornin' and look inside your mirror,
You know I won't be next to you, no, I won't be near.
I'd just be curious to know if you can see yourself as clear
As someone who has had you on his mind.