Even in the days after his passing. I guess I remember Evon even more now with certain things in life. I guess feeling guilty for not being there like I wanted too is daunting me each day. I suppress all the feelings which im sure im not the only one in my family to do so. I think most of my siblings are holding allot in as well. Even at this point I see Evon in my images each day, that is telling me he is okay and to let go of the anger, because if I dont let go. The Devil will take controll of my life and cause me to do things and listen to things that are dangerous and evil. The true memmories of Evon afre sacred. The brightest memmory of him for me was the first day I got to be reunited with him at the foster home after he was hospitalized for being burned on most of his body and I thought he wouldnt make it, but that little boy survived and that was a miracle on its own. His body survived a devastating blow, and God gave him the will and his body to over come such a horendous ordeal. For me at the time, was happy, joyous and glad he survived, but sad that he had to go through that and be scared and reminded of that fire. I knew that I would be there and help him through that and help him fight his fears and demons together with God on our side. That day was the biggest memmory for me and Evon and he new then and there that I would try to stay by his side and be there for him and try to never let him go back into the fire in his mind. I believe God gave me a purpose and that purpose was to protect my brothers and sisters from harm and evil. Those days are gone but those memmories live forever in my soul till the day I see him again in heaven and then I will fully be healed from these emotions that bind me to his memmories. Evon New God and Found God in many ways, God worked his magic through many people in his life including mine. If it werent for brothers and sisters that he had growing up and as well as new family and parents we would of missed out on so much in life. Im thankful for all that even if it hurt or i have bad memmories of things. In life all of it will teach me and others how to cope and move on from things and to better teach others how to cope and move on from those things as well. Evon always wanted everyone to be happy and to grow in the light of God. The moral of this story is that through adversity and suffering there is always a light and if you stay True to God you will find the hope and happiness and prosperity that you need. That is what Evon did in his life all the way up till the end. God Bless you brother Ill see you again in the happiest place ever Gods Kingdom.
