Folasadeeeeeee! Why do I start from? I will start from December 27 2020, when I saw your photos on Seyi’s timeline wishing you a happy birthday. First I felt bad again, for missing the date itself knowing you’re almost a Christmas baby!
Then I smiled seeing you, the kids (all grown) and Seyi. I saw you’d lost weight and I wondered personally if that was intentional. But with the load of work I had to do, I brushed the thought aside, left a comment and prayed for you in my heart- like I always did! Yes I pray for you every time you come to my mind: as I do for you and Seyi often- especially when I think of the times we spent together years ago before I travelled. Some of the time, I pray when i feel guilty we’ve haven’t been in touch as much as I’d have loved.
Most of the time, it’s out of pure genuine love I have for you,Seyi and the kids. How could I not? After the years we spent together and new moms, newly wed women trying to figure out our God given roles together. I’d come to your house, bring little imisi and his Lunch. You’d waddle to the door with your huge belly to open the door for me and we’d spend the day together.
I’d share how it is like to be a mom, you’d share your struggles with the bump but also fantasize how much you couldn’t wait to meet your son. And when it was time for Jaiye to arrive, I was right there with you! Going back and forth and advising you on what to look out for when it was TIME! Jaiye came and naturally , Seyi named me his Godmother.
A role I am yet to solely take on ( compounding the guilt I feel right now)! Years passed and your little daughter came, my namesake!!! We started to live life, miles apart and that took a toll! There are lots of regrets I feel right now mostly because I didn’t know that life had happened the way I didn’t think at all! Every time thoughts of you came along, I would long for the day we would catch up, spend loads of time together as though we’d never been apart. Little did I realize that while that day would STILL COME , no doubt, it won’t be in THIS LIFETIME.
Rather, it would happen on that day when we will meet to part no more! Folasade, while this seems like a piece where I am confessing my sins and sharing my regrets, it is one of gratitude for the time we shared together. The laughs, cries, and journeys to Iporin market together. I hope you read this somehow..I hope there’s a printer in heaven that you could print this on and read it everyday just as I intend to. Then let me ask that you write one to me too and save it. I promise I will get to read it someday! Goodnight Folasade