April 5
April 5
Hey jus.
I know it’s been a while I’ve been avoiding come on here. So much has been going on and so much has changed. I really think you’d be proud of me. Our kid is amazing and idk what I would do without him. I put on this front like I’m ok for everyone but I’m truly struggling with you not being here. I talked to your mom today and she told
Me uncle Kenny was in an accident.. I knew as much as I didn’t want to I had to throw myself together and be there with your dad. I did & it was the hardest thing I’ve had to do in a while. Walking into the same hospital and seeing him like that triggered the day I lost you all over again. I’ve been laying in bed for hours replaying that morning over and over again. Questioning myself if i made the right decision.. I really need you right now to hear your voice or feel you kiss my forehead just to have your arms around me telling me
It’s ok. Jordan’s tries so hard to comfort me which makes me feel even worse. I don’t understand why you, why did you have to leave us like this. I need you, Jordan needs you. Please give me the strength to push thru this and continue to watch over us. I love you Justin always and forever.
I know it’s been a while I’ve been avoiding come on here. So much has been going on and so much has changed. I really think you’d be proud of me. Our kid is amazing and idk what I would do without him. I put on this front like I’m ok for everyone but I’m truly struggling with you not being here. I talked to your mom today and she told
Me uncle Kenny was in an accident.. I knew as much as I didn’t want to I had to throw myself together and be there with your dad. I did & it was the hardest thing I’ve had to do in a while. Walking into the same hospital and seeing him like that triggered the day I lost you all over again. I’ve been laying in bed for hours replaying that morning over and over again. Questioning myself if i made the right decision.. I really need you right now to hear your voice or feel you kiss my forehead just to have your arms around me telling me
It’s ok. Jordan’s tries so hard to comfort me which makes me feel even worse. I don’t understand why you, why did you have to leave us like this. I need you, Jordan needs you. Please give me the strength to push thru this and continue to watch over us. I love you Justin always and forever.