I miss you today even more than the day you were taken out of my life. I just wanted to leave a message telling you that felicia , is having another baby. This time it's a girl. You would be having a little talk with her. Telling her, have you learned nothing from watching your family with all the kids around you already. even though u always told me you were too selfish to share my time between you and kids, you still had grown fond of the little kids around my moms. They still miss you so very much. We all do. I, often talk of you, OK everyday. I share memories so, I can never forget our times together. Not just because they were mostly hilarious, but I don't never want to forget them. Plus, it makes me feel like you are right her next to me. Hoping to keep myself together without you this, Thanksgiving. For the last 9 years you come to my mom's for dinner. Even if you were mad at me. Except, that one time your sister came into town and I didn't return your call fast enough. That day you never wanted to see me again! I remember like it was yesterday. Glad we got past that day. Love you still just as much today as I always have. Maybe a little more today. Just wishing you were here, physically. You are with me in my memories, spirt and heart/soul. Now, I'm going to invite someone to 9ur family dinner who, just lost their loved one. since, they might b needing to b alone right now. Is it crazy to maybe be concerned for a person whom, i probably wasn't friends with when you were here. I just can't help but reconize needs a friend during the hardship of losing a very close person to them. We used to say that that kind of concern is a weakness. I think it's just an instinctive awareness of life, and how valuable and precious it is. And how in an instant it could all b over. Or maybe it's the adult thing to do. Either way you would be proud of me. Missing you forever. And missing your face baby.