Bro… It feels like yesterday
The day God took you home, part of me went with you because that’s how we grew up. Hand in hand. Twins born on different dates. The love we had for each other was untouchable. I am still sobbing; sobbing because I never told you I was sorry. How can I move on with this guilt hanging over my head and you are not here for me to go down on my knees and say I’m sorry. How can I move on when you were right the whole time and I won’t listen? I am Sobbing because I disappointed you. I will give anything to have those three years back.
When I met you at the Bamenda general hospital on the 28th of December 2014; you said “Rose thank you for coming to help me fight” and we fought for three months and we were blessed; you bounced back. I left back to the US hoping to come back the following year for big celebration for your health and for giving us another chance. It never crossed my mind that I will never see you again.
Uncle Godlove, when you called me on August 18, 2015, 7:15 am, did you know you were going to leave in 3 three days? Did you just call to hear my voice or you had a message for me? Did you know that you had come to the end of your road? If I left before you, would you have moved on by now?
Yes I know you would want me to move on; but how?
I want to think that you are resting from pain and sorrows, and in a place of warmth and comfort; surrounded by Angels in a garden of flowers with lots of melody. You are free because you followed God’s path. You took his hand when you heard him call.
You left us beautiful memories. Your voice lingers in my head every second since you left us. Even though we cannot see, hear, feel, or touch you, your love is still our guide. Your memory will forever remain green in our hearts.
You are always by my side even though you and Gertrude break the family chain and nothing seems the same, we will all link again as the Almighty calls us one by one.
Gosh…..It feels like yesterday!!!
I don’t think of you as gone; I think of you as resting!!!!
But you are gone because it is TWO YEARS TODAY and I have not heard that soft, gentle, witty, Saintly voice of yours!
YOU HOLD A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART THAT CAN NEVER BE REPLACED!!!!!!