It's been almost 6 months since Ozzie passed away. I have learned to cope but it hasn't been easy. I do realize part of the grieving process is to learn to move forward and hold onto all the great memories close to our heart. I set up this memorial tribute so others can write a note as part of the healing process. We may look at were we are today, tomorrow and in the future and at least have these notes that offer us some solace.
Today is your 58th birthday and the first one that I can't call you and send you a card. I do know that you are in heaven and our guardian angel along with Mom. There's not a day I don't think about you, it hits me in waves...I so miss your voice and your calls and when you left me a message saying "Hi Bea this is your brother" call me or pick up your phone, or when you would say you never pick up your phone LOL.
The little things that we take for granted. It's been almost 6 months that you have passed away and it's still incomprehensible to think I can no longer pick up the phone and call you and get advice from you, or just chat and have a good laugh. I remember the fun we had together in our younger years hanging out, canoeing, camping, racquetball, partying in our 20's... I feel so blessed to have been able to share those precious moments.
I learned alot from you and you were a mentor to so many. We were joined by the hip for so many years. You were my best friend and have made such an impact on our lives. I love you and sometimes I close my eyes and imagine you are still around or gone on a long trip around the world.
The hardest part is that there's this void, emptiness that gnaws at me. I have dreams of you and Mom...and I know that you are at peace. I know you are watching over us. You have left us with a gift and part of you will live forever through Adriana, Lauren and Emily.
I remember when we were growing up so many times you were there for us. In particular I think about the time when we were in grammar school and a girl was picking on me and you and Victor taught me how to put someone in a headlock to protect myself. You told me never run away and stick up for yourself.
I love you with all my heart and soul...