I've been blessed to have had two fathers in my life. Both were equally-influential in their own ways. Since my first father died when I was 34, Jack was in my life much longer, at over 40 years as my step-father (although I called him Dad as well). He was also really the only father of mine that my three children knew.
A couple years ago, for Father's Day, I shared with him and my family some of the ways that he had influenced my life. And, by doing so, how he had influenced the lives of my children. Here's is what I shared:
First, were the things I either already had learned from other sources, but that he reinforced:
- Being playful with all people. Whether it was telling corny jokes, pulling people's legs, or pushing their buttons, this is something that dads are often credited with in the same way that moms are often credited with being more nurturing.
- Being frugal. As a child of the Depression, Dad was always vigilant about having us turn out the lights, keeping outside doors shut, and stuffing yourself at the all-you-can-eat buffet.
And now some things that were uniquely his contribution to my life:
- His oldest son, Mike (12 years older than me). My other step-brother, Doug, was in the Navy and college while I was growing up, but Mike made it a point to spend a lot of time with us, even after we were grown. He didn't have kids of his own to pass things on to so he passed them on to me and Paige instead. To me, he gave me a passion for the deliberate appreciation and understanding of all things: learning everything there is to know about something to better savor all aspects of it and not waste a single speck of the experience. He also taught me how to appreciate music ("If you like an album the first time you listen to it, then it's not a good one, because you'll quickly get tired of listening to it.") and instilled in me a confidence towards life from introducing me to skydiving (if I could jump out of a perfectly good airplane, then I could...[whatever]).
- Being a conscientious driver for passengers: drive for their comfort, with no sudden stops, swerves, starts, etc. That will also make you a safe driver.
- Give gratitude for, and show respect at, meals: always thank the chef and no whistling or elbows on the table.
- He exhibited a healthy lifestyle, particularly with regular exercise (hiking, handball), and eating well.
- Taught me how to be a handyman. If it weren't for him, I wouldn't know how to make repairs, paint, etc. Sometimes all it takes to be able to do something is to see it done by someone else; then you a least have the confidence to try it yourself.
- Showed me the value of respect. This was probably the most valuable lesson Dad taught me. Specifically, of how good it feels to be respected by those around us and how bad it feels when you lose that respect. I looked up to both my dads, but they had different ways of teaching me lessons and making sure I followed the rules. Dave didn't always like to explain why I needed to do something. He would often just tell me, "Because I said so," and would punish me with spanking or grounding if I didn't do it. The problem with that approach is that I wouldn't learn why it was a good idea for me to do what he told me to, except to avoid punishment. Therefore, if I thought I could get away with something without Dave finding out, then I would still do what he forbade (spend more time with my girlfriend, try alcohol, collect comic books, etc.), if I wanted to. Jack never punished me in those extrinsic ways, though. Instead, he took an intrinsic approach. He would pay me the respect of taking the time to teach me why it was in my interest to behave a certain way. Usually that would make me feel special and want to please him by respecting him back by taking his advice. When I didn't, though, I would feel terrible whenever he caught me not taking his advice because he would make it clear that I'd lost his respect. I hated that a lot more than being grounded! Not only did it feel worse, but earning back respect takes a lot longer than being grounded. Respect is easy to lose, but hard to earn.
In all those ways and more, Jack will live on in myself, my children, and many more, to the extent we are able to live those values ourselves and pass them along. They are part of a rich heritage indeed and one for which I will always be grateful and love him for.
Goodbye, Dad. I miss you already.