Oh Dad, I hate today... all month I avoid thinking about anything I might have to do on this date. I took today and tomorrow off, wanting to someway do something to honor you, going to Toledo, something but when it came time to make plans, communicate with anyone I couldn’t I just avoid even acknowledging that it’s close. It might have been better if I’d have to work so I was forced to function without much thought.
Five years! So much has changed in five years, all those desires, plans, and promises to never lose touch with our loved ones have failed; not due to anyone persons fault, it’s just how life tends to happen when the day to day gets in the way. I miss you so much, I miss Joey and Paige. I miss our planned holidays.
I’d imagine this year we would have had lots of arguments once the OSU Zac Smith scandal happened; knowing your distain for OSU I’d imagine your stance. However we both know the side conversations and posts would have created the argument. You’d call me early in the morning saying you couldn’t sleep because we argued ; but it would all be okay. I told Marlin you must have had that frontal lobe mass for quite a while, because you had been so calm for so many years.
Dad this post is all over the place, so much I wish we could talk about but really I would just love to see your face and give you a kiss and a big squeeze!!