ForeverMissed
When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see,
The sun will rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me,
I wish so much you wouldn't cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things, we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too,
Life at times will catch you unawares but please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand.

He said my place was ready, in heaven way up above,
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly loved.
As I turned to walk away, the tears fell from my eyes,
For all my life I'd always thought I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for, so much left yet to do,
It seemed so very cruel to me that I was leaving you.
Thoughts of all our yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
Are remembered for all the love we shared and all the fun we had.

If I could relive just yesterday, even for a short while,
I'd say my goodbyes and kiss you, and hopefully see you smile.
As the days pass into weeks, don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me, I'll be there in your heart






Posted by Donna Barker on September 27, 2022
Happy birthday dear James xx
Posted by Moya Griffiths on September 27, 2022
Party in the skies today James on your Heavenly birthday ❤️xx Thoughts & Love with your family today, as they reflect on your life! Forever Loved & Missed so xx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on September 27, 2022
Have a Happy Birthday James xx

Love and miss you as always. Never a minute goes by when you're not on my mind xxx

I hope you're partying away with your friends... and well away from the mess we've got down here
Posted by Michael Bagan on September 27, 2022
Happy 31st Birthday James, thinking of you and your family today. Forever young my friend.xxx
Posted by MaryLou Stripling on April 4, 2022
James, Thinking of you along with your loving family on this sad day. Give your loved ones a comforting sign. <3
Posted by ENU SINGH on April 4, 2022
Hello James ,
11 years since I have known you and looked at your handsome face n number of times since then . I never fail to wonder what you would have been today .
Wherever you are , have the best life . Be happy , be blessed .
Take care and keep taking care of all your loved ones
Posted by Banu Mouli on April 4, 2022
James unbeknown to you and Kiru, your mom and I share a beautiful friendship
Now, ofcourse, you both must know each other. And whack each other for leaving us moms. Love you loads
Posted by Vanda Bubear on April 4, 2022
11 years since they found you in the river James <3

I hope you'll be having the time of your life (the irony won't be lost on you) up there with your mates xxx

Watch out for all of us, and indeed the whole world because of the mess we're in right now. I'm 100% sure you're better off out of it on the ranch :)
Posted by Michael Bagan on March 13, 2022
Hi James,11 years ago though it seems like yesterday I met your lovely family. You're always in my thoughts. Forever Young my friend.xxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on March 13, 2022
11 long years James, and still not a second goes by when you're not in my thoughts. Miss you and can't wait until we meet up again xxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on March 13, 2022
Thinking of you James and all your friends and family on this day you moved from one world to another. Our loss is their gain.
Donna xx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on February 13, 2022
❤️ Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again ❤️

Happy Valentine's Day to all my family in Heaven. I hope you all have a wonderful celebration xxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on December 31, 2021
Every New Year takes me further away from the last time I saw you, and closer to the time when I'll see you all again xxxx

Happy New Year in Heaven to all my beautiful children xxx ❤️❤️❤️ xxx
Posted by Moya Griffiths on September 27, 2021
Heavenly 30th Birthday wishes James, party in the skies Handsome  Love ❤️ & thoughts with your family on what should be a day of celebration xx
Posted by Lyn Westbury on September 27, 2021
Happy 30th birthday to our wonderful James.
You are missed so much by everyone.
Love you lots
XXX
Posted by Donna Barker on September 27, 2021
Dear James, thinking of you and your family on this your 30th earthly birthday! Hope you are celebrating well! Much love, Donna xxxx
Posted by iris kizler on September 27, 2021
Happy 30th Birthday in Heaven James <3

We miss you all, and we love you all very much xxx

From your Nan

PS: Look after Great Grandad for me xxx
Posted by Michael Bagan on September 27, 2021
Hi James, Happy 30th birthday my friend. I feel so blessed that you and your family have been a part of my life’s journey. You are always in my thoughts, lots of love to all of you today.xxx Forever Young my friend.xxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on September 26, 2021
Have a wonderful birthday James. You would have been 30 years old, and no doubt somewhere we can't see you ARE 30 years old. I hope you're celebrating in the way only you knew how :)

Life is not the same here without you. Such a huge gaping hole in all our lives since you left. Words aren't enough to describe it. But I thank you for that time you left me so many signs of your continued presence. And only the other evening, you sent your photo - which is on my mantelpiece - flying off on to the floor.

I hope to receive many more signs tomorrow. Love and miss you <3 xxx Mum xx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on September 1, 2021
Happy 96th birthday dad xx ❤ xx

Hope you're having a huge bash up there with all our family ☺

Miss you loads as usual. Always thinking of you and the precious memories you helped create xx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on August 15, 2021
"Joy and sorrow are two sides of the same coin, you can’t have one without the other.

Together they come,and when one sits alone with you at your board remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.” (Kahlil Gibran)
Posted by Ann Beddow on June 18, 2021
Every beautiful word written here is a wonderful tribute to someone who must have been a really loving and caring soul! It seems even though we never met we have a connection through these wonderful tributes by people who were close to you and who truly loved you! RIP James
Posted by Vanda Bubear on May 9, 2021
A poem for James - by Steven Kizler

A star that burned so brightly
Was doused far, far too soon
You wandered by the river bank
Guided by the moon

Your future lay ahead of you
Your hopes, your loves, your aims
Alas that deep dark water
Extinguished your bright flames

It didn't care you were so young
Or that your name was James

In memory of James Bubear 1991-2011
Posted by Vanda Bubear on April 4, 2021
Ten long years ago they finally brought you home, James. I remember how you came to Uncle Ricky in a dream this very morning 10 years ago, and you told him "I'm coming home".

Ricky immediately told me as he thought it was good news. How were we to know you WERE indeed coming home, but not in the way we'd hoped and prayed for. <3
Posted by Donna Barker on March 13, 2021
Dear James, ten years, wow, I can still remember visiting Sophia at Exeter Uni and you came on the news, when everyone was out looking for you, before you were found, although obviously I didn't know it was you at the time. Sending you love always, and to your family still here with us who are still missing you so very much. xxxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on March 13, 2021
Ten years. Where have they gone?

Love and miss you every single hour of every day. That will never change.
I hope you're having a celebration up there on the ranch - ten years since you came back home xxx

Mum xxx
Posted by iris kizler on March 13, 2021
Ten years has passed so quickly. 

Love and miss you. No words are sufficient to underscore the deep loss we have suffered.

Nan xxx
Posted by Michael Bagan on March 13, 2021
Hi James, its been ten years since you passed to spirit and it still feels like yesterday. My thoughts are with you and all your family today, lots of love to you all.xxx Forever Young my friend.xxx
Posted by iris kizler on March 11, 2021
No-one should ever have to walk
This painful, lonely road
The death of a beautiful grandson
Is just too heavy a load
Posted by Vanda Bubear on February 14, 2021
Happy Valentine's Day James <3

Missing you as ever, hoping you will be having a wonderful celebration over there with our family XXX

Send my love to all of them. You are all loved so much, and sorely missed.

You need to look after us left behind in this crazy world that's gone to hell :/
Posted by Vanda Bubear on December 31, 2020
Happy New Year in Heaven to all my family xxx I hope you're celebrating up there. Something we aren't allowed to do here. How weird is this world at the moment. You're all so lucky to be out of it and rid of this utter madness.

Love and miss you all xxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on December 25, 2020
Merry Christmas to all my family in Heaven. So many of you, and more with each year that passes. The chain is slowly linking up again. Love and miss you all. Have a drink on me xxx and keep us all safe down here in this crazy world xxx

Mum xxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on November 5, 2020
Happy Birthday in Heaven little William xxx

Today you will be 34 years old. And I can only ever remember you as a five-day old baby in the ICU at Reading Royal Berkshire Hospital.

Not a day goes by when I don't think of you and say your name. 

Always in my heart and in my thoughts. Love and miss you xxx Mum xxx
Posted by Moya Griffiths on September 27, 2020
Heavenly birthday wishes James, party in the skies with All Angels gone to soon! My Love & thoughts are with your family today xx ❤️
Posted by Donna Barker on September 27, 2020
Happy birthday to you James, lots of love to you and your family, today and always xxxx
Posted by iris kizler on September 27, 2020
Have a wonderful birthday up there with your grandad and brothers and sister, James.

We all miss you so much and I look forward to seeing you all again <3

Until that day, I treasure the memories xxxxx
Posted by Michael Bagan on September 27, 2020
Happy 29th birthday James, thinking of you and your family today. Lots of love to you all.xxx
Posted by ENU SINGH on September 27, 2020
Happy birthday to you James
Wish you were here and had a normal , socially distant, but a memorable birthday with your loved ones . 
Wish you were here really!!
Posted by Vanda Bubear on September 27, 2020
Happy 29th birthday in Heaven to our precious James <3 xxx <3

Time does not heal. It makes us miss you more. All the things that might have been, but never were. All the cuddles and hugs never shared. All the life goals never reached. 

You never got to meet your little nephews. You would have been proud.

A bright light in this world, doused too soon. We love and miss you James <3
Posted by Vanda Bubear on September 10, 2020
I'm sending a dove to Heaven
With a parcel on its wings
Be careful when you open it
It's full of precious things

Inside a million kisses
Wrapped in a million hugs
A measure of how much you're missed
And how you're truly loved

I hold you close within my heart
And there you will remain
To walk with me throughout my life
Until we meet again

xxxxx Mum xxxxx
Posted by Enu Singh on September 4, 2020
James , I was thinking about you . I was wondering that pandemic would have given you a lot of time to spend with your close family members . I do keep thinking what you would have felt about the current times . You would have worked from home and craved for outings and cafe food like all young ppl I meet around . Love ❤️
Posted by ENU SINGH on August 4, 2020
Was thinking of you James , you sweet handsome boy .
You won’t have believed the times we are living through. 

Posted by Vanda Bubear on July 29, 2020
Thinking of you my son
Posted by Vanda Bubear on April 4, 2020
Nine years ago today we got the terrible call, at 6.00 am, and Hannah answered it :(

They'd found you in the River Avon, 3 weeks after you went missing.

That day our whole world changed, and none of our lives would ever be the same. We became different people. Our lives shifted along the light spectrum towards the dark.

We have had highs and lows since, ups and downs. I have had two wonderful, precious little grandsons who you never got to meet. You would have been a wonderful uncle, and you would have taught them all you knew (which was a lot). 

But for me, life really stopped on 4 April, 2011, and never restarted. I found myself with a foot in two worlds - this one, and the one you reside in.

As parents, we will tear the universe inside out to find our children, to console ourselves that they are happy, wherever they are. There is a James-shaped part of me missing, but I know that, wherever you are, you are bringing joy and happiness, wit and wisdom, much as you did down here.

Love and miss you my son xxxx mum xxxx
Posted by Donna Barker on March 13, 2020
Dear James, thinking of you today especially but Paul and I were reminded of you and your family when we saw a sign written van on the M25 this week with Bubear and Scott I think?!! Made us both remember and talk about you all. Can’t believe it’s 9 years, but there’s no time where you are, only here for us. Sending you and yours lots of love today and always xxxx
Posted by Steve Kizler on March 13, 2020
James I will never forget Vanda saying ,James the little so and so never went back to his digs last night.Little did we know then what we know now. As I said then a bright light doused too soon.Miss you mate and you would have given me stiffer competition at Quiz Planet than your mum.
Posted by ENU SINGH on March 13, 2020
It is unbelievable that it is now nine years that you have crossed over . Nine years of knowing you by reading all your stories here and knowing you through the eyes of your mom and sisters and grandmaa and other loved ones .
James I wish I knew you in flesh and blood . Loss is mine . You are so lovable and sweet and handsome. Keep spreading joy wherever you are .
Posted by Michael Bagan on March 13, 2020
Hi James, my thoughts are with you and your family today. Nine years have passed so quick, lots of love to you all.xxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on March 13, 2020
We lost you nine years ago, James, and still it seems like yesterday.

Went up to your oak tree yesterday and the little miniature daffodils were in full bloom. They looked beautiful. And your windmill was whirring round fast as if it was pumping energy in your tree to grow, grow, grow.

Which it has done. Constantly. It's overtaken all the other young trees and is now a fully fledged oak tree reaching high into the sky. Tall and slim, just like you.

Your name is not mentioned as often, but it's always on my mind.

Stories aren't shared anymore, but they're always in my mind.

Happy times no longer recalled. But forever in my memories.

Love and hugs to my beautiful, precious son from his mum xxxxxx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on March 8, 2020
The anniversary of the day you left us fast approaches my son ❤ and I miss you more each passing day. I'm glad you're starting to appear in my dreams again. For a short time I get to spend time with you again. One day those dreams will come true. Love you my son xxxx
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Posted by Donna Barker on September 27, 2022
Happy birthday dear James xx
Posted by Moya Griffiths on September 27, 2022
Party in the skies today James on your Heavenly birthday ❤️xx Thoughts & Love with your family today, as they reflect on your life! Forever Loved & Missed so xx
Posted by Vanda Bubear on September 27, 2022
Have a Happy Birthday James xx

Love and miss you as always. Never a minute goes by when you're not on my mind xxx

I hope you're partying away with your friends... and well away from the mess we've got down here
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31st Birthday

Shared by Vanda Bubear on September 27, 2022
Happy Birthday in Heaven James 
Seems so strange to think you would now be 31 years old, and you would have changed in so many ways. 
We still see you as the wiry 19 year old we last saw jumping down the stairways 4 steps at a time, landing in a heap and with a huge thud. 
As the progonist of all the laid back 'discussions' in the house, where you were always the Devil's advocate, disagreeing with anything anyone said just to create a good argument
As the one person who could outwit anyone else on the board when playing Balderdash, with your hilarious and characteristically well written, professional contributions, always managing to outwit and misinform
As the only one of my children who would secretly cry at old movies
As the champion of the underdog, to the exclusion of all else
As perhaps the most intelligent and quick witted person to ever reside in our household, always on hand with a smirk and a quiver of your lips
As the writer of the most beautiful Mother's Day cards one could imagine, those of which I still have I treasure <3
It is hard to imagine you are anything else but how we last saw you, and heard you.  I, and all my friends on here who also grieve the loss of their children, hold on to those last memories of times spent with you all, as the most precious things we possess.  Mums and dads who fear 'forgetting' what their children sound like.  How they acted.  Their smiles.  Their day-to-day trials and tribulations.  All the little things
I hope you have a celebration up there, James, as befits you and your friends.  I am sure you have linked up with the children of those mums I am privileged to know here, through Facebook.  And I am sure you will have a huge party in memory of everyone up there who was lost to us, and everyone down here who lost a huge part of themselves as a result <3 x <3 x

James

Shared by Vanda Bubear on April 4, 2022
Beautiful graphic from Robin in Florida 

<3 

11 Years

Shared by Vanda Bubear on April 4, 2022
11 long years since we last saw or heard you James :(

There is nothing to compare to the grief and sorrow of losing a child.  No-one can know this until they themselves experience it.  And I truly hope they never have to experience it.