James SMALL (2)
James Bubear
  • 19 years old
  • Date of birth: Sep 27, 1991
  • Place of birth:
    Llandrindod Wells, Wales, United Kingdom
  • Date of passing: Mar 13, 2011
  • Place of passing:
    Bath, Somerset, United Kingdom
"We're Better Together" - to all my children in Spirit - William, James, Suzie, Terrence, Reilly, Peter, Sam and Cai xxx

I created this memorial page on 1 May, 2012, in memory of my precious son, James, brother to William, Amy and Hannah, who is in our thoughts each second of the day, and will forever be in our hearts.  The world has suffered a great loss, James, but this world's loss is heaven's gain, and I know we will meet again one day.  I know you are now with your big brother, William, who I also miss so much, although I was not able to create many memories with him, as he only lived here with us for 5 days. I know too, that you have now met up with your half siblings, Suzie, Terrence, Reilly and Peter ❤

Thank you to everyone who has left such beautiful tributes, and memories of James, on this page.  It uplifts us to realise just how many lives he touched, both those of people he knew and those who never knew him alike.  We're very proud of him, and through your memories, we've come to know a side of James we never knew before.

James' Facebook Pages also contained many memories and messages left for James. Many thousands of people gathered together on those pages to offer their help and support in the few weeks my son was missing, and this great outpouring of love towards a common aim will never be forgotten by any of us, his family. 

LETTER FROM HEAVEN

To my dearest family some things I'd like to say
But first of all to let you know that I arrived today,
I'm writing this from Heaven. Here I shall dwell with God above
Here, there's no more tears of sadness. Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and He said "I welcome you.

"It's good to have you back again,
you were missed while you were gone,
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you are part of my plan
There's so much that we have to do to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
And foremost on the list was to watch and care for you
And when you lie in bed at night, the days chores put to flight
God and I are closest to you . . in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth and all those loving years
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

1 wish that I could tell you all that God has planned
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand
But one thing is for certain though my life on earth is o'er
I'm closer to you now than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind
I'm walking in your footsteps, only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go . . from that body to be free
Remember you're not going . . you're just coming here to me.

Memorial Tributes
This tribute was added by ENU SINGH on 4th April 2018

"James,
Today is a dark day for us for having lost such a beautiful person from the face of this earth. Such a beautiful person is heaven “s gain. I so deeply wish you were here to illuminate this earth with your lovely personality and made this a better place to be. Lots of love to you wherever you are. Keep shining precious one."

This tribute was added by iris kizler on 4th April 2018

"Happy Memories of a beautiful grandson.

My candle is lit, precious James.  My thoughts are always with you, my grandson so sorely missed and such a shining light in our hearts <3

Love you always, precious heart.  Nan xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 4th April 2018

"Today marks another year, James, since they found you in the river.

You had been missing for 3 weeks.  I remember your sister Hannah picked up the phone, at about 6:00 am, and I could see her face visibly crack up as the police explained what had happened.  Not able to believe it, I asked whether they were SURE it was you.  Yes, said Hannah, because they could still see the blue make-up on your cheeks, even though you had been in the water for 3 weeks.  The
make-up you had worn for the masquerade ball.

I remember my mum getting out of the car that morning, visibly shaking, and calling out in the street "No, no, not my James", over and over again.

I remember my brother having seen you in a very lucid dream that very morning, walking down the road towards him, and telling him you were coming home.  And come home you did, on that very morning."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 30th March 2018

"Happy Easter James xx You would have loved all the chocolate.  And the Capri Sun.  Memories of so many happy Easter times past, spent walking up in Fairyland, dipping in the brook (weather allowing) and easter egg hunting.  I know you can do all these things up there on the ranch, and in that lovely house by the sea.  Send us some signs - let us visit you at these places so we can see for ourselves.

Love you and miss you, more as the years go by xoxoxo Mum"

This tribute was added by ENU SINGH on 13th March 2018

"James, I have been thinking about you with lot of fondness while looking at your lovely pictures. I will always think about you just like my own son Abhijeet till I live. And just like your mother I too hope to see you on the other side. I send you all my love  and hugs to your mom"

This tribute was added by Barbara Paronto on 13th March 2018

"James, I think of you every time I hear "Halo".  You will always be remembered...  Even those of us who never actually met you, remember you."

This tribute was added by Marian Flagg on 13th March 2018

"James.. sending  love to you and your family xx"

This tribute was added by Moya Griffiths on 13th March 2018

"Love & thoughts with all your family on your Angelversary James, continue to fly high young man resting in Love xxx❤xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 13th March 2018

"A bright light doused too soon.

So much promise never realised.

You would have been a light to this world.  Now, more than ever, we need that light.  So many wicked things going on, and so many good people passing over to Spirit.  Keep an eye on us all, James, and say hi to all the family over there.

I'll meet you tonight in my dreams xxx"

This tribute was added by Donna James on 13th March 2018

"Dear James, sending lots of love to you and your family to help support you all especially so during this anniversary time. Xxxx"

This tribute was added by Michael Bagan on 13th March 2018

"Hi James thinking of you and all your family today.Lots of love to you all.xxx"

This tribute was added by ENU SINGH on 9th March 2018

"Hi James
I don’t have words  enough to express that you are  so loved by me. I know you so much that I will recognize you without a doubt as soon as I see you in heaven. Keep doing all the great things you are doing and keep sending some exxxtraaa love to your Mom"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 12th February 2018

"The gates of memory
will never close ..
we miss you more
than anyone knows.

With tender love
and deep regret ..
We who love you
will never forget.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY JAMES xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 8th February 2018

"25 years in Heaven little James Bulger. Rest peacefully little Angel who suffered so much ❤"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 6th February 2018

"Thank you for my star, James. A wonderful experience. It made me smile, widely. Because somehow I know it was you.

As I know it's you when my little Robin comes up to me on cold winter days angling for some food. Looks me right in the eye, follows me around the garden, even runs the gauntlet of barking mad Jasper the dog to get my attention. He's always there.

Love you and miss you forever. Forever 19. Forever young."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 21st January 2018

"Welcome to 2018 James

Sorely missed and forever loved.  Treasured memories xxx"

This tribute was added by iris kizler on 25th December 2017

"To my Special Heart, my grandson James.

Miss you every day and think of you all the time.  I often look out the window, the way I used to, expecting to see you walking up the road from school, coming to have a drink and a sandwich at your nan's. Such wonderful memories will stay with me forever.

I shall be coming over to see you soon, and you will be able to show me around.  

Love and hugs from your Nan xxx Give Grandad Mike a hug from me x"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 25th December 2017

"Merry Christmas James, and to every one of our loved ones over there:

Nan and Namp
Dad
William and James
Susie, Terrence, Reilly and Peter
Sam and Cai
Bobby and Lucy
The two Davids
Uncle Cyril and Aunt Joan
Uncle George and Aunt Agnes
Uncle Tom and Aunt Grace
Uncle Arthur and Aunt Joyce
And all my many pets who have gone over to Rainbow Bridge over the years ...

You are always so sorely missed, so very much loved, and thought of every second of each day.  

Till we meet again, when the party will be amazing (can you imagine?)

XXXOOOXXX"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 2nd November 2017

"To my William. Almost 31 years ago, on Bonfire night, you were born at 27 weeks - 13 weeks too early. You were a good weight (3.5 Ibs) but you weren't meant for this world.

You fought so hard to be free of the tubes and ventilator in the SCBU. You used to pull out the tubes by flailing your little arms about. "Leave me be. I'm not meant to be here long". And I knew, as only a mum can know, that you weren't for this world and I would never get to take you out of that hospital.

Five days later, on 9 November, we got the dreaded 2.00 am call. Your little lungs gave out. The doctors were in tears. A priest was already there by your incubator. And we were allowed to hold you, finally, without all the tubes. You had on a preemie babygro that swamped you. And what was so obvious to me was that 'you' had gone from that lifeless wee body. The real you was now somewhere else, somewhere safe. Home.

Now, 31 years on, you have your brother up there with you. I know you're great buddies. I know you would have looked like Hannah. I know you would have been severely brain damaged and possibly blind, had you lived. The autopsy revealed a large haemorrhage in your brain caused by the anticoagulants I was on for a blood clot while pregnant.

I know a lot of things. Most of all I know I'll always miss you. Always love you. Always wonder how you would have looked, what you would have become. A lifetime squeezed into 5 short days. All those lost cuddles.

See you soon buddy xxx Mum."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 23rd October 2017

"It seems like only yesterday
I rocked you on my knee,
With dreams about the future and
What you were going to be.

You were so bright and happy
Such a precious little boy,
You gave your love to everyone
And filled our hearts with joy.

Strangers would admire you
And stop to say hello,
"He'll break a lot of hearts," they said,
"In twenty years or so."

But less than twenty years from then,
What they said came true,
As we were forced against our will
To say goodbye to you.

A life so short and unfulfilled,
With so much left to go,
"Why, oh why?" we ask ourselves,
When we all loved you so.

Life shows us many options,
But whichever path we take
The destination's still the same
Whatever choice we make.

So many questions flood our minds,
"What if, and Why and How?"
If we had done things differently,
Would you still be with us now?

I don't know what the lesson was
That you were sent here to learn,
But now your purpose is fulfilled
It's time for you to return.

When I hear the phone ring
I expect to hear you say,
"Alright Mom? What're you doing,
Can I come 'round today?"

But you don't need to ask now,
You're with us every day,
Within our hearts, our minds, our souls,
Your memory will stay.

No fear, no pain or sorrow,
Can touch you anymore
But the love you've left behind,
Will live with us forever more.

~ Jan Andersen"

This tribute was added by Banu Mouli on 27th September 2017

"James
Its as if i have known you all my life
Me and yr mom are very good friends now
Hope you and kiru are also together along wid all our orher angels
Have a blast James"

This tribute was added by Marian Flagg on 27th September 2017

"Dear James,
Happy Birthday ....best wishes to you and your family xxx"

This tribute was added by iris kizler on 27th September 2017

"Happy birthdayTo my special heart grandson James, I will always miss you, you are in my thoughts every day, love you always Nan xxx"

This tribute was added by ENU SINGH on 27th September 2017

"A very happy birthday to you James . As you celebrate your birthday in heaven today , do not forget to hold your mom tight today and always . You will always be remembered and  always missed but I know you are there , just there where we will find you some day . Can't stop wondering how you would have looked today , what you would have become ♥️♥️♥️"

This tribute was added by Donna James on 27th September 2017

"Happy birthday to you James.  Thinking of you and yours especially today.  Lots of love xxxxxx"

This tribute was added by Michael Bagan on 27th September 2017

"Hi James Happy 26th birthday my friend, thinking of you and all your family today lots of love to you all.xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 26th September 2017

"Happy 26th Birthday to my beautiful son xxx

Miss you more than ever.
Love you eternally.

Look after your nan, your sisters and your two little nephews.
Don't forget to call in on your mum occasionally.

Hope you have THE best party ever up there.
One day I'll be there to celebrate with you.

I feel like a little lost soul wandering around endlessly searching for that missing part of me.

Until we meet again James. Give your brothers, sister and grandad a big hug xxxx"

This tribute was added by Banu Mouli on 29th July 2017

"Hi James
I recently came to know abt kirus friend who shares yr days of birtj anf year and month too
It made me shudder.
Thinking of you and yr mom"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 12th July 2017

"Your tree is growing so big James. So much so I asked the council to take the stake and tree guard off. Now its standing tall on its own. It's the first time I've been able to clean up the plaque and treat it with wood stain. Well we can still put flowers there because I've tied the little jug to your tree!

Love and miss you more as the years pass. Can't believe its been over 6 long years since I last saw and heard you. Forever in my heart, and in my thoughts each second of each and every day.

Love Mum xxxx"

This tribute was added by iris kizler on 30th May 2017

"You were the centre of my world
A grandson held so dear
But now that world is shattered
And you're no longer here

But all you need to know today
Is all the joy you brought
You brightened every moment
Though your life was far too short

You were loved completely
From the day that you were born
And no-one could imagine
Such a dreadful day would dawn

But memories are wonderful
And though they still bring pain
They give us hope and keep us strong
Until we meet again

Precious James <3"

This tribute was added by Enu Singh on 4th April 2017

"Dear James.
It has been six years since you acquired your wings. Your  loved ones miss you every moment of every single day . They have learnt to feel the love for you in an eternal infinite way. Plse let them know in all ways that you can think of that you are there exactly where  you were. You will always be loved. Always."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 4th April 2017

"Six long years, James, since they found you in that horrid river :(  and not a second goes by when I'm not thinking about you.  Still.  All these years later.  And so it shall continue.  So sorely missed and so deeply loved.  Such a loss to humanity, at a time when the world really needs good people, intelligent people, like yourself, who stand a chance of making things better for future generations.  All the good ones seem to be leaving us, so we will be left with all the selfish ones, the greedy ones, the corrupt ones ... and what legacy will they leave to our grandchildren?  It does worry me.  I know you will do all you can, from where you are, to help. You have always helped me when I have asked, which is many times.  From making things a bit easier in this life, to simple things like finding our car keys ... you're always there to lend assistance, big or small.

I hope you're getting to do everything over there that you might have done over here, had you not been snatched away from us that cold March night in 2011. Ever the joker, the sarcastic wit, the trembling lip, the keen tennis player, athletics prodigy, singing Etta James, or acting out Jerry Springer sketches with Amy in all those southern accents.  We remember the games of Balderdash where your own offerings, always hilariously funny in a very 'British' way, still managed to convince all the other players yours was the true meaning of whatever it was.  We remember the games of 'Consequences', both the written and drawn versions, where your contribution was, again, hilarious.

What are we missing since we lost you?  Everything.  Nothing less.  And the world has lost someone who would have contributed greatly, to the laughter, to the wisdom, to the knowledge and, most importantly, to the love.  God Bless you son <3"

This tribute was added by Moya Griffiths on 13th March 2017

"Thinking of you James & your family
Sending love to the gateway to Heaven
For you"

This tribute was added by MaryLou Stripling on 13th March 2017

"Thinking of you James and your family upon your angelversary today <3"

This tribute was added by iris kizler on 13th March 2017

"to my precious heart grandson James, it's been six years since you passed over and I miss you every single day I know I will see you again one day, please look after Auntie Joan, lots of love and kisses from your Nan xxx"

This tribute was added by Enu Singh on 13th March 2017

"Hey James
Six years since you have moved ahead on your journey. I don't know you , but I have thought about you ever so often . This day , I wish you all the happiness wherever you are. Give lot of signs to your mom and all your loved ones. You will always be loved, always missed."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 13th March 2017

"Love and kisses from Mum xxx Love and miss you more with each passing hour :("

This tribute was added by Michael Bagan on 13th March 2017

"Hi James my friend,my thoughts are with all of you today. Lots of love to you all.xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 12th March 2017

"Love and miss you my beautiful young man, forever 19. Six years have gone by since we last saw you, or heard your voice. Yet not a second goes by when I'm not thinking of you. The pain never ends. The longing increases with time. There is no let up for me, nothing that I can do to make it all better. My only source of comfort is knowing you live on, and that you still exist, in a place that's better than here. I know you look down on us, sometimes in frustration, mostly in love, and that you help us through the difficult times. Oh what lessons you have taught me. Always so bright and clever, so quick-witted and sharp. Why on earth did I ever let you go to Bath, to that awful place? A place where, STILL, young men are being taken by that river, despite everything. No lessons learned. No shame.

Love you always and forever. My special heart. My son."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 14th February 2017

"Happy Valentine's Day James xxx Hope you have a wonderful time on the ranch - BBQ and barn dance, perhaps?  I hope Aunt Joan is rested enough to join you there.  She's been gone a week, and to us it feels like a lifetime.  Where is the Boss of the World?  She is now Boss of Heaven xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 9th February 2017

"Rather than mourn the loss of the flame
Instead celebrate how brightly it burned"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 5th February 2017

"Look after my Aunt Joan, James. I'm sure you know she passed yesterday after a big fight to stay, aged 91 years. I know you loved Aunt Joan, and you'll be chuffed to be able to show her the ropes. Send her all our love, and remind her she promised to visit us in our dreams. The chain is breaking this end, James, and linking up over there. There are only a few of the old guard left here, because you're all over there living on the ranch. Save a room at that ranch for all of us, won't you?

I'll always remember your words: "It will get better in the end. If it's not better, it's not the end"."

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 27th January 2017

"Wonderful to hear you heard what I asked you the other night, and visited Aunt Joan with your Grandad and Will. I know you will all keep her safe and make her as comfortable as possible. You're looking after her. Keep her family strong, and send your beautiful healing energy to all of us at this time, especially your nan and Auntie Lyn.

It's great to hear you all live on a huge ranch over there. I know we all have a room booked. I wonder who looks after the horses on that ranch ...

Miss you as always. Give my love and hugs to everyone: Will, Suzy, Terrence, Reilly, Peter, Sam, Cai, Bobby, Lucy, David, Uncle Cyril, Uncle George and Aunt Agnes, Uncle Tom and Aunt Grace, Uncle Arthur and Aunt Joyce. Oh, and all my pets.  Love, Mum xxxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 31st December 2016

"Happy New Year James, and all my family in Heaven. 2017. Hope it's a good year. A year closer to seeing you again. Love, Mum xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 25th December 2016

"Merry Christmas James.  Hope you have a wonderful time in Heaven.  We will miss you, and the games of charades, and Balderdash, at which (of course) you excelled, as with everything else.  The games of Consequences, which you made to be so funny.  We will miss your wit and wisdom, especially at this time, but always and forever.  You are always in my thoughts, each second of the day.  Love, Mum xxx"

This tribute was added by Vanda Bubear on 20th December 2016

"Those special memories of you will always bring a smile,
If only I could have you back for just a little while ...
We could sit and chat again, just like we used to do,
You always meant so very much, so proud am I of you.

The fact that you're no longer here will always cause me pain,
But you're tucked away safely in my heart until we meet again xxx"

This tribute was added by ENU SINGH on 28th September 2016

"I haven't ever met you but I have a strong desire to meet you.
And I shall."

This tribute was added by ENU SINGH on 28th September 2016

"Hey Dear James
It is your birthday . Hope you are rocking it up there with all your buddies including Abhijeet . I wish you all the love and peace and all that you wish for . Keep some free time today to send some awesome msgs to your mom. Lots of love"

This tribute was added by laura tomei on 27th September 2016

"With tender thoughts of you James.... I remember your beautiful face . Happy Celebration in Heaven ! May you continue to meet with your loving mother and family members through cosmic travels xox"

This tribute was added by Barbara Paronto on 27th September 2016

"James, Happy Birthday... Every time I hear "Halo" I think of you.  Though I never knew you, I feel that I've gotten to know you thru the video clips and photos.  A bright guy with a fantastic sense of humor. Thinking of you, your Mom and your sisters today. Send them a sign today and reassure them that you are at peace."


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