I miss you Daddy! It seems like forever since the last time I saw you, but it seems like only yesterday when that deafening silence fell in your room; that was, and forever will be, the worse day of my life! I never knew silence could be so loud!

We laugh when we think of that sly grin when you were up to something and when you would come running down that hall to ask if I'd go to the Deli. We can still hear you laugh watching two & a half men or yelling at the Cowboys. I still see you playing Spades on the computer. I never appreciated your knowledge of computers until I had to figure it out on my own. I know you kept telling me you wanted to show me how to do things and I kept putting it off until it was too late. I'm sorry, I guess I thought if you didnt teach me then you would have to stay here. 

Every day & night, I think of you and still cant hold back my tears. I never knew real loss until I lost you! If I could have 1 wish it would be to see you again, to hug you and talk to you even if it were for just a moment. I treasure every dream I spend with you and hope they would last forever; but, I wake up and you're not here. 

I hold on to you in my heart and am grateful to have had a lifetime with you. I dont think I'll ever feel happiness or joy ever again. I've been so depressed since that day 8 years ago I honestly think Ive forgotten what it feels like to be happy and complete. I really miss you! 

I love you, Daddy! Forever!
Baby Birdie