My Father, the man who was always there for me no matter time of day... Who do I turn to for comfort and guidance now, Daddy... The indescribable pain is more than I can bear right now and I hope you are finally at peace... You were my hero, my father, my confidant, my Saturday Morning Cartoon Buddy, My strength when I needed it and my guiding light when I felt lost. I am so lost right now and knowing you are not there to tell me I will be all right is nothing I have ever had to be without till now. I miss you so very much and I just don't know if I will be all right ever again... I hope you know how much I respected you and loved you.... I am not ready to say goodbye and I don't think I ever will but willing myself to get up everyday and reminding myself to breath is getting harder instead of easier... I cry when no one is looking as its easier for them to not see me fall apart everyday, in my car, in the shower, at night before I go to sleep. I know I am an adult but I was always your little girl and no matter what age I was, you were always there to help guide me and not once ever let me down.. How do I go on now without you???? I never felt alone in this world until 230am November 16th 2014 as you took your last breath and everyday since then has been empty and alone. Not one other person in this world has or will ever love me like you my father and its a scary world without your love and support... Everyone says, time will help but I cant see that right now All I see is darkness and despair, I cant seem to love anymore... I hope I can love again and make you proud of me... I'm trying Daddy, I really am but it just seems impossible to love or be loved by anyone right now. Please send your love to me and mine asap
I love you Dad
Darcia