What do I miss most about Jenna?  Her presence!!!  When I wake up in the morning, I miss seeing her beautiful smile.  I miss her keeping me company when we got dressed for the day.  I miss her quirky singing and dancing in the car, when we drove down to the hospital.  I miss playing games with her, while she was getting her chemo.  I miss her spunk, and how she always made us laugh. I miss her amazing hugs that she shared all day long. I miss her enthusiasm for life, no matter how difficult the day was. I miss her at bedtime when she cuddled with me and sucked her thumb while holding her blankie.  I miss her telling me "Everything is going to be ok."  Most of all I miss having her here with us and telling her how much we love her.  
I love you and miss you, more than life itself.
Mommy 

I remember the day we had tickets to go see The Backyardigans Live On Stage.  It was supposed to be me, Chris, Jenna, Alessia, and Giancarlo.  We were in the Bronx @ Nonna's house.  We were all waiting for Uncle Chris to get of of work @ the firehouse.  Well when I called him he was on an emergency run and he was stuck @ work, which ment he would be late for the show.  I decided to take the kids by myself in the pouring rain to the city, and I would meet Chris there.  I didn't want to disappoint the kids, especially Jenna.  So we finally got to the city, it's still pouring rain out, and we are in grid lock looking for a parking garage.  After about a 30 minute wait, we finally got out.  We were all running through the puddles, in the pouring rain, getting soaked.  I remember saying "if mommy would know what we were doing we would be in so much trouble."  At last we are inside, Chris arrived, and we are now watching the show.  About half way through the show Jenna had said that the show was ok.  We all laughed and realized that the best part of the day was when we were running outside through the rain, jumping in the puddles and getting wet.  These were the things we wouldn't normally do...So glad that we did.

I remember planning Jenna's birthday party with her. We sat in bed together while talking about what we could do at her party.  She loved the idea of having her friends bring over an American Girl Doll and giving each of them a make-over.   Jenna was so excited to have her friends over and share some of her dolls with them.   Jenna's smile and laughter on her last birthday here on Earth, will forever be embedded in my heart.  I love you and miss you!