Hello my son ,been awhile since I wrote you, I miss and love you with all my heart I never in my whole life of struggles and things that happen to me in my life that I would ever lose my children.its the hardest thing that can happen to a parent I will never get over losing you I feel like my whole world crashed down on me.but you know that when you lost your son .I have lost three.sons.I am trying to live life but its very hard without you.never thought you would leave us don't understand why I know how you were feeling those months before you went away just never thought you would leave us guess your heart took enough that's how my heart is feeling.well just had to tell you I love and miss you terribly and can't wait to be with all of you in heaven.love mother