August 10, 2017
August 10, 2017
My sweet Joel, How do i even begin to explain how much my heart hurts. There are no words. You would have been a big 34 and growing into another chapter of your life. Oh how i would have loved to see what that would have been. So now all i have are the memories, very precious ones like today on your birthday and my first moment of seeing you and holding you for the first time. We have had so many great funny times together. Sure we had some tough ones too! But every day you'd put on that beautiful smile and do your best to up build those around you. I have dreams about you often, its euphoric when i see you in my dream. We all miss you so much sweetheart and i love you more than anything in this world. I will hold you in my heart to my last breath...until we meet again by the mercy of God, i know you are in safely resting in His hands....Love, mama <3