It's now ♤2017♤..This year still feels the same as the past 4 New Year's, depressed as hell being alone, without u hear with me. It feels like it's been forever ago that u passed away. My words can't even remotely come close to explain the pain in my heart that I feel since losing u. I hate the holidays now since ur not here with me..i feel all alone n this fucked up world..I lost my "BEST FRIEND"/"LUV OF MY LIFE", now I dread waking up everyday. I wish 2 God it would have been me that passed away & not u. There's never a day that goes by that I don't think about u, & miss u dearly. I will love & miss u 4 the rest of my days & cannot wait til the day we meet again. LOVE U ALWAYS & FOREVER JOHN♡♡♡♡♡♡