john , wow i am dying here without you . you were my rock . Tell me , how am i suppose to live without you. i was at ur earthbound crib ,decorating your grave for Christmas, i was there 6 hours in the dark , just falling apart. please talk to who ever is in charge of the shitty way things r being ran and ask ,beg to come c me , even for a nano second , i need u , tell um!!! PLEASE
sorry i no u probably cant do anything about it i always believed if God was real ,he could do anything but i have prayed my mind blank , cried my eyes out and it doesnt seem as though anyone is listening i cant even work this fffd up site i cant load pics Its sad , its a sad, sad, situation,,,,,love forever...for always ....bar none,,,miss u so much i not sure what i got to do i am sorry