So here it goes.... Never Thought i would be doing this, but i will try my best to allow words to describe my pain even though there are none that can. I will never forget the courage you gave me through my lowest times. You were not only a brother and friend - you were my mentor. I thank you for giving me strength and for always being the example of the person I wish i could be. Thank you john, for letting me talk to you when i felt at my lowest. Thank you john, for giving me the confidence to go on when i thought i had zero. The days that go on from this point forward will never go without me missing you. I messaged you on that gloomy day, but it hasnt been my last I have tried reaching out like somehow on the other end you will say something. For the past 7-8 years i believe I had an angel as a friend by my side. So all i can do now is thank god that i was able to be friends with such an inspirational friend. If everyone had a friend like you this world would be in complete peace. So i will go on in my life and be the best that i can be so that you will stay proud of me! I will miss our conversations the most, but i will cherish each and every single one we had. They say "dont grieve. everything that you loose will come to you in another form," so i will not grieve for I will know that you are present just not in the exact form that you were. So im not going to say goodbye because you havent left. You are here and you will always be with me. I miss you buddy.....