It’s been ten years without you and that’s so hard to even believe. I wish I could sit down with you, back when the dinner table was in the kitchen at you & grandma’s house, and we could interview each other. I would ask you so many things. How’s Papa Sy up there? How’s Destiny and Joseph? What’s it like?
I would tell you everything that’s happened these past ten years that I’m sure you already know. Your presence is still here. But I would tell you about graduating college. I would tell you that Jodi is getting married next month! Can you believe it Gramps?? I would tell you that my fiancé and I are buying the Alano house! That’s crazy, right? I have a fiancé?? What??? I know, grandpa, I know. I would tell you all the crazy things that I went through while joining law enforcement and I know I would’ve cried to you when I made the rough decision to leave that career that I worked so hard for. I would tell you about my new job. I would tell you that our family isn’t in the best place lately but your grandkids are trying so hard to fix it and I know we will. I’m going to be 26, I think it’s time to take charge. Without family, we are nothing and I know that is a value we learned from you. There’s a lot of things our family needs to heal from, and I think you understand that. We are trying to encourage everyone to be more open to communicating feelings or else we are never going to be the same. It’s a work in progress but it’ll change, I know it.
I know you’ve been looking down on us and I can only hope that I’ve made you proud in these 10 years. I think about you often, and I even have a picture of you set up in our house (I have no other pictures out right now because I’m so slow at unpacking) I love you more than words can say and I can’t wait to see you again.