Hey Jay! Whoever said this would get easier, lied. Whoever said that time heals all wounds probably never experienced loosing someone who they loved so much, an everlasting love. A love that you couldn't describe because only actions were the best way to express. As I drive to work every morning I cry, I look at your picture On my dashboard and I cry. I look at it when I get off work and I cry..... I said too myself maybe I should take this picture down but then I say no I can't do that, because your watching me! I then said too myself I want to be able to stare at this picture one day and cry tears of joy but honestly it isn't possible. I was at lunch with my friend today and we were discussing her birthday plans you two have the same birthday. I was like OMG jay is a scorpion like me, no wonder he's so strong and tough. Idk why that just came to my head I was amazed. Any who I wish you would come back In my dreams and see me, let me know how heaven is? Is it cold up there, do y'all have a pool and sun so I can catch a Tan? No but seriously u know I love the sun. I could lay out and watch u play ball. I'm not gonna talk to much , just wanted u to know I was very sad today. But I'll continue to pray for strength, continue to watch over me and mom please, we need love! I love u forever brother . Love your sister , COURTNEY