WELL HERE IT IS FIFTY YEARS AND YOUR NOT HERE.  sO MANY WONDERFUL MEMORIES OF YOU. THE BEST WERE HOW YOU LOVED YOUR CHILDREN.  WHEN GOD SUPRISED US WITH ELIZABETH, YOU WERE ON THE MOON, YOU WERE GLUED TO THE NURSERY WINDOW AT ST. CHARLES. IT DIDN"T MATTER I COULDN"T MOVE ( OUR  BABY WAS YOUR PRINCESS, YOU GOT THE BIRTH CERTIFICATE PAPERS AND YOU FILLED  THEM OUT , YOU NAMED OUR BABY, I WANTED TO CALL HER JENNIFER AFTER "LOVE STORY" . YOU DID THE SAME AS MY OWN DADDY HE FILLED IN THE PAPERS ANS NAMED ME.  BUT THE MOST SPECIAL TIME FOR ME WAS WHEN VISITORS LEFT, AND THEY BROUGHT ELIZABETH IN. THEY PUT A PAPER GOWN ON YOU SAT YOU IN THE ROCKER AND SAID OK DADDY TIME TO FEED YOUR BABY. THEY PUT HER IN YOUR ARMS AND YOU WERE IN HEAVEN.  ABOUT A MONTH AFTER ELIZABETH WAS BORN  ( YOU WANTED HER CALLED ELIZABETH NO NICKNAMES.) YOU TOLD ME YOU WANTED TO HAVE ANOTHER LITTLE GIRL.  I LOOKED AT YOU LIKE YOU WERE NUTS, I SAID NO, I WASGOING ON 31 AND HAD A 9 YEAR AND SEVEN YEAR OLD SONS. SPORTS WAS THEIR THING.  I HAD TO DRESS MY LITTLE GIRL AND SIT IN THE CAR WHILE THEY PLAYED HOCKY IN GOOD SHEPARD, I TOLD YOU IF YOU COULD GUARANTEE A GIRL MAYBE. IN MY HEART I KNEW YOU COULD NOT. SO YOU GAVE ALL YOUR LOVE TO YOUR LITTLE PRINCESS.  I WAS VERY HAPPY GOD GAVE US A 7 LB. 11 OZ. GIRL.  NOW OUR LIFE WAS COMPLETE, WE HAD THREE CHILDREN. A BEAUTIFUL HOME, AND 3 YEARS LATER MY WORLD CAVED IN YOU WERE TRANSFERED TO N.J. YOU TOLD ME I HELD YOUR CAREER BACK BECAUSE I WOULDN"T MOVE. SO I SIGNED THE PAPERS AND 7 DAYS LATER HAD A HEART ATTACK. BUT  I MOVED ANYWAY, 1 YEAR LATER THEY LAID YOU OFF AFTER14 YEARS WITH OXY.  SO NOW THE REAL LIFE SET IN.  UP ONE STEP FALL DOWN 2. YOU GOT A JOB WITH CONGOLIUM LINOLIUM IN TRENTON  3 YEARS LATER THEY CLOSED THE PLANT. A YEAR I FINALLY GOT YOU TO GO HOME TO N.Y. NOW A NEW LIFE, WE HAD TO RENT, OUR WORLD WAS NOT THE SAME.  BUT WITH GODS HELP WE MADE IT AND THANKS TO AUNT THEA AND UNCLE ERWIN THEY PUT YOU IN THEIR WILL. WE COULD NOW BUY A HOUSE.  LIFE WAS BEAUTIFUL TO ME.AND OUR CHILDREN. YOU REALLY GAVE ME A KOOKIE LIFE BUT THERE WAS ALWAYS LOVE BETWEEN US.  THEN YOU HID THE BIGGEST SECRET FROM ME AND LIZ..HOW COULD YOU KNOW YOU HAD CANCER AND ONLY ABOUT SIX MONTHS TO LIVE NOW YOU PROBELY KNOW YOU WERE STUPID.  YOU BLEW OUR WORLD UP IN A MILLION PIECES. THE MEMORIES WE COULD HAVE NADE WITH THE TIME WE HAD LEFT. INSTEAD LIZ A ND I CRY EVERY DAY. I KNOW YOUR WITH US AS AN ANGEL BUT THAT DOESN"T HELP I KNOW OUR BEAUTIFUL GRAND DAUGHTER SAW YOU, JASMINE.IS A BABY AND THEY SAY THEY CAN SEE DEPARTED SOULS, PLEASE JOE WATCH OVER MY BABIES. TAKE CARE OF THEM. THEY ARE A PART OF US. I MISS YOU SO, PLEASE SEND ME A SIGN, I LOVE YOU MORE THAN EVER. SO DOES OUR CHILDREN, TILL I SEE YOU AGAIN, I REMAIN YOUR WIFE FOREVER,  I LOVE YOU, BETTY 

WELL MY LOVE YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN 72 TODAY. AS I WRITE TO YOU  I CRY, YOU AND OUR BABIES WERE MY LIFE. I AM SO LONELY, ITS GREAT TO HAVE ROBIN, MICHAELS WIFE. SOMETIMES, SHE IS WARM AND LOVING.SHE GOT ME TO GO TO A PRIMARY CARE DOCTOR, FROM THERE I NOW HAVE A HEMOTOLIGIST AND CARDIO DOCTOR. I AM ON SO MANY PILLS NOW. I HAVE TO CARRY NITRO ALWAYS. THEY ARE GREAT NICE DR'S.WITH ALL THE THINGS THAT WENT ON I SHOULD BE IN HEAVEN, NOT YOU. NOT A DAY GOES BY I DON'T THINK OF YOU. JEFFERY SAYS I WON'T BE WITH YOU AS OUR FAMILY NEEDS ME. IF JOEY EVER COMES BACK MAYBE THATS WHEN I WILL GO. I AM NOT AFRAID TO DIE AS I WILL RUN TO YOUR ARMS.THE KIDS DON'T NEED ME, THEY HAVE THEIR OWN LIVES AND FAMILYS, .MAY 9 WAS OUR DAY 52 YEARS IT WOULD HAVE BEEN. AND I NEVER STOPPED LOVING MY BEAUTIFUL BLUE EYED BOY. I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY WITH YOUR DAD, AND YOUR  MOM,AND .DO YOU HAVE OUR 2 BABIES I MISCARRIED With you and FLAME, PENNY, PEPE, MURPHY,CHARLIE, and YOUR  Tommy.  I LOVE YOU AND PRAY FOR YOU AND MY DADDY.. HOPING TO BE WITH YOU SOON, I LOVE YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY. ALWAYS YOUR BETTY

JOE, YOU SAID IT IN 1973, SHE IS NOT MY REAL MOTHER. SHE NEVER LOVED ME. BUT IT SEEMS SHE WAS YOUR  REAL MOM. I COULD  UNDERSTAND YOUR DAD HAVING AN AFFAIR, SHE WAS SUCH A BITCH ALL HIS LIFE, LOOK HOW SHE TREATED HIM.  THE POOR MAN , HIS WHOLE LIFE. NO WONDER YOU WERE LOVED SO MUCH BY HIM. I AM GLAD YOU ARE WITH HIM . SOME DAY I WILL MEET THEM, I HOPE YOUR MOM TREATS ME BETTER,. KISS DAD FOR ME, TELL HIM THANK YOU FOR LOVING YOU THE WAY HE DID. I KNOW I CAN'T BE WITH ALL OF YOU YET, BUT JEFFERY SAID I HAD WORK TO DO, GET MY FAMILY BACK TOGETHER. I MISS JOEY SO MUCH, HE HAS YOUR  STUBORN STREAK. I AM GLAD YOU TOLD ME HE WILL BE COMING BACK TO ALL OF US .IN HIS TIME WHEN HE DECIDES, I CAN'T WAIT, HE IS STILL MY BABY, EVEN THOUGH HE IS 48. I WISH HE WOULD REMEMBER I WILL BE 70 THIS YEAR, AND NOT SO WELL.WHEN WE ARE ALL MADE UP AND A FAMILY AGAIN, I WILL BE READY FOR GOD TO BRING ME TO YOU..I LOVE YOU, MY LIFE AND SOUL-MATE  I HOPE IT IS SOON, I'M LONELY, I HAVE NO ONE, FOREVER YOUR BETTY

MY LOVE, THANK GOD FOR JEFFERY, I FEEL LIKE YOUR TALKING TO ME WHEN HE TELLS ME THINGS. I HAVE NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU.SO YOU HAVE THE ROCKER, I THINK THATS FUNNY. I GAVE YOU YOUR BLANKET TOO.I HOPE YOU LIKE THE WALL,  SORRY BUT I WILL BE BEHIND YOU, YOU KNEW NO EARTH FOR US .AREN'T OUR GRANDCHILDREN BEAUTIFUL? ARE YOU WITH OUR SONS? I KNOW YOU PLAYED WITH THE GRANDS BEFORE THEY WERE BORN. 7 OF OUR GRANDCHILDREN, 21 TO 2 YEARS OLD. WE MADE A BIG FICHERA FAMILY. THEY KISS GRANDPA JOE'S PICTURE,  I WEAR ON MY CHAIN. JOE I'm SO GLAD YOU FOUND OUT THE TRUTH , JUST THINK . SHE WAS YOUR REAL MOTHER, BUT NEVER KNEW HOW TO LOVE AS WE DID.  TILL I CAN TALK TO YOU THROUGH JEFFERY AGAIN, REMEMBER YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.  I WISH I COULD SEE OR TALK TO JEFFERY, SO I KNOW HOW YOU ARE, AND WHATS NEW. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, I REALLY SHOULD HAVE APPRICIATED THOSE DAYS WE WENT TO BLUE POINT. AND YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME YOU WERE SICK. WE COULD HAVE MADE SO MANY MORE MEMORIES. YOU ARE MY LIFE, I AM STILL MARRIED TO YOU, NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM ME. I WILL  ALWAYS LOVE YOU, TILL  THERE ARE NO MORE STARS. WAITING TO BE IN YOUR ARMS, LOVE ALWAYS, BETTY

HOW DO I WRITE ABOUT THE MOST IMPORTANT MAN IN MY LIFE,FOR 38 WONDERFUL YEARS I WAS HIS WIFE. THERE WAS OUR SONG BY SONNY AND CHER  "I"VE GOT YOU BABE" every word was just like our life from the begining.WE HAD OUR UPS AND SOME BIG DOWNS.BUT WE HELD ON AND FOUGHT LIFE TILL THE WHEEL WENT AROUND. SOMETIMES THE ROAD WAS ROCKY, BUT WE HUNG TOUGH. OUR LOVE HELD US TOGETHER NO MATTER  HOW ROUGH. BY THE TIME TEN YEARS HAD PASSED AND WE HAD 3 CHILDREN WE KNEW WE WOULD LAST.WE HUNG ON TOGETHER  AND ACCEPTED WHAT LIFE GAVE US, .I HUNG ON TO YOU FOR LIFE , YOU AND ONLY YOU COULD FIX WHAT I SAW AS STRIFE.THEN OUT OF NO WHERE GOD TOOK YOU AWAY NO MATTER WHERE I TURNED I  WAS LOST .WITHOUT YOU,.YOU ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS STRONG, COULD HANDLE ANYTHING. I TRIED EACH DAY TO HANDLE LIFE BUT MY HEART WAS BROKEN, I PRETENDED TO BE STRONG, I NEVER LET PEOPLE SEE ME CRY . I KNOW YOU WILL BE WAITING FOR ME, IN YOUR ARMS I WILL RUN AND NEVER LET GO. AND THEN WE WILL BE TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH , I MISS YOU AND YOUR FUNNY WAYS, JOE I AM LOST, PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME, SHOW ME A SIGN. I LOVE YOU.AND NEED YOU,WHERE DID 11 YEARS GO. YOU HAVE MY LOVE FOREVER. TILL WE MEET AGAIN, I REMAIN YOUR WIFE, BETTY

WITH TINY TEARS THAT GLISTENED, MY EYES WERE FIXED ON YOU, AND THINKING OF THE LIFE WE WILL SHARE AS WE SAID OUR "I DO"S OUR HEARTS WERE KNIT TOGETHER FROM THE TIME THAT WE FIRST MET, AND MEMORIES WERE  GATHERED THAT WE NEVER WILL FORGET.      
WHILE DAILY LIVING LIFE WITH YOU, YOU SAW THE REAL ME, AND STILL YOU CHOSE ACCEPTANCE, A LOVING MYSTERY.    WITH MANY HAPPY TIMES GONE BY AND OTHERS WHEN WE CRIED. SOME DAYS WE WOULD SHARE SO ENDLESSLY, WHILE OTHER DAYS WE WOULD HIDE.  WITH ALL THE UPS AND DOWNS WE HAVE HAD IN LEARNING TO BE BEST FRIENDS, I KNOW THAT IN THIS HEART OF MINE I WOULD MARRY YOU AGAIN, IN A HEART BEAT.  I MISS  YOUR LAUGH, YOUR FUNNY FACES, I MISS TALKING TO YOU PLANING OUR FUTURE YOUR LOVE FOR OUR CHILDREN I LOVED EVERYTHING YOU DID, I MISS YOUR KISS WHEN YOU CAME HOME FROM WORK. I MISS YOU SO MUCH, THE KIDS MISS
YOU SO MUCH.  SOME TIMES I FEEL YOUR PRESENTS,  MY HEART SWELLS AND I WISH I COULD HUG YOU.  IN MY MIND I AM STILL  YOUR WIFE.  REMEMBER I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL.  TILL GOD BRINGS ME HOME TO YOU, YOU ARE STILL MY LIFE, AND MY LOVE, I LOVE YOU,  BETTY