JayJay, if you're reading this, you know how many nights I've cried myself to sleep. You know how many letters I've written to you after the accident. You know how much I love you and always will. I thank God every day for the opportunity to have gotten to know someone as incredible as you. You will always have a special place in my heart. We were going to go to college together. We were going to keep our relationship going, maybe even get married down the line... it hurts that our future together was ripped away from us. It hurts that I'm here and you're not, when you deserve it more than I ever did. Thank you for everything, Josh, and I'm so sorry. I know you're up there, watching me, and I'll try to be happy. For you. For me. For us. It will ALWAYS be "us." I love you and miss you so much. -KayKay
