You were heavy on my mind this year. You would be turning 45 this year just wish you were still here but I forgive you for leaving. Was remembering the other day when we played pool with icicles. Big ones.

Now it seems like I'm really older than you and that's really weird....I have your eulogy card hanging on my wall by my coffee pot so I see you everyday and think about you everyday. I wonder if you can see your beautiful daughter....I know you would be so proud....I hate that this is reality....

Happy 44th anniversary of your birth. Wish you were here. Missing you

3 years. So many things I needed your help with but you aren't here. I wonder if you can see.

Missing you more then ever

Happy Birthday in heaven

Missing your presence wish I could be with you again.

Tonight we will set off sky lanterns in memory of Josh