mum, i know that i,ve not been the daughter you wanted me to be, i was married to paul( sugar lips) as you use to call him,for 35yrs an then in 2010 i lost him to cancer, so i,m hoping that you are looking after him, till i get to see him again, i never really got over you passing,an i know i should have said goodbye in the chapel of rest, but if i,ve done that it would so finale.

mum,con,t..an i didn,t want that, so deep depression came an took over,at the wake, i must smoked 40 fags,so when you smoke so much an not eating you get very lightheaded, i know it was you who said my name when your fav record came on, an i was crying, i don,t know if you can follow me when i,ve moved around, but i know that paul is with me, as he leaves me little signs,so can you.XXXX