Thursday was the first anniversary of your passing ,it feels like yesterday and time has stood still. My heart is broken and will never mend ,people say time is a healer but its not, its harder the longer it is since I could give you a hug ,hear your say love you mum ,see you so happy playing with austen and being a daddy .it breaks my heart to see him have to grow up without his brave daddy.
But on Thursday we decided we'd celebrate your life so me ,Austen,his mummy Sophie,his nanny ,grandad,auntie Marie,Connor,Daisy,Charleigh,Meisha and pobbo ,went to Carlisle Castle ,as you loved to go their when you were little so thought it was apt to take your Austen,he loved it as we all did, we smiled a lot and laughed a lot, just as you would want us too.
Then we went to Carlisle Cathedral cafe as you loved to go there with your grandma and grandad when you were Austen's age ,for a cup of tea and a sandwhich ,so we all did that ,and then lit a candle for you in the cathedral.
Then we went to visit where your ashes were scattered in wood 5 at Carlisle crematorium, that's where you wanted to go same as your grandma and grandad.it was so peaceful, we laid some roses and sent you kisses love and hugs up to heaven.and we all vowed we would do something special on every anniversary to celebrate your life .
Sleep well my angel love you always mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx