Kelli, I'm so mad at you. I can feel u around me. I know how your hip hurt u a lot. Mine is killing me today, and I think it's you. I found a dime on the front porch last night. I knew it was u.
Yesterday, I had all of it ffigured out in my mind, clinical compartmentalized it, closing off the feelings of losing my sister. We had never been close, but I always held out hope that we would be one day. I wanted to be your best friend. I wanted to trust you with everything and visa versa. But u would rather be rivals, and I spentmy wwhole life loving you, but afraidyto let u into my life again. I'm so glad
We were kinda close the past year. And I am glad you don't have to struggle anymore. I love you forever, regardless of our petty stuff. I know you're still around, and I wonder how it all really feels to you. I bet it's bitter ssweet. That's what it is to me. I'm conflicted. You were so mean to me. I appreciate that, too. The world is mean. I needed to know that. Lol. I promise u I will make sure those boys are happy. Goodbbye, Cartwright. Nelly. Kelli Michelle Mcclellan.