Have not written alot on this site, but love still here to do so. Cannot believe it has been 8 years. Today you would be 27, which means your mom is old, lol.
Reading all the posts here again and watching the videos, listening to the music, all the pictures I could not help to break down. What I would not give to have you here with us, miss you so much. There are no words still surreal even to this day. There is nothing in this world that is not surrounded by parents and their children. I have up until 18 and then I can only hold on to memories. It hurts like hell that I will not see you fall in love, get married perhaps have kids. You had so much life to live and it was abruptly cut short by drugs. They robbed us of having you and our future with you. This jorney is not something as a parent you even think of, but yet here I am. I do the best I can, God does the rest. Every emotion is touched on and that is ok, there are no instructions on how to get through this. I have the right to be angry, sad, and yes happy. Angry that I had you only until 18, sad I am not able to share a future with you. Happy as a believer in Jesus that I will see you again. Just know my beautiful son, you are so loved in every way, celebrate big in Heaven today. With all my love, mom❤❤