My Darling
It’s September my love, a bittersweet month for me. I mean, you know I always felt my Birthday on the 14th should have been declared a National Holiday! But then that terrible day in 2015 ~ September 25th. The horrible day I lost the love of my life ~ the man whose love was the greatest blessing in my life. So I decided to put all of my emotions on paper. The 25th marks another one of our “anniversaries” and it is, without a doubt, one of the saddest dates in the calendar year for me. The 25th is the date I lost the love of my life, my partner, my lover and my best friend. The day I lost my better half, my biggest support, my number one fan and my family. The day I lost the man of my dreams and the man I wanted to grow old with. The man I swore to spend the rest of my life with. I remember the first time I saw you at the airport. I remember the feeling I had when our eyes first met. I remember, feeling like you were the person I’d been searching for my entire life; and even though we didn’t know each other before that moment in the airport, you were familiar to me. It was strange how I immediately knew I could trust you. How I felt safe with you and how I felt I was right where I belonged. That night I realized when we met at the airport, our souls recognized each other. I realized that could only mean one thing: you were my soulmate and my other half. You were the person who completed me and the person who gave my life meaning. The only man I ever have loved. I remember our beautiful wedding day. Seeing you at the end of the aisle of Black Mountain Methodist Church, waiting for me to appear. I remember reciting our vows and the way I felt when we said, “I do”. I remember we promised to love each other “till death do us part “. My heart breaks when I think how quickly death parted us. The truth is that our love story was never a real-life fairy tale. Like any other couple, we had our ups and downs. Not everything was always great and our relationship wasn’t always a bed of roses. The truth is we had some happy and some less than happy times. We shared some good times and bore some bad ones. We had our share of fights and disagreements, but we always had trust in our love to show us the right way. We always had faith in us and that is what made our marriage perfect and special. It is the fact that we never questioned our love or our bond. It’s the fact that we never questioned each other and that we never gave up on us. It’s the fact that we always fought for one another and walking away was never an option. It’s the fact we were obviously imperfectly perfect for each other and that had always been more than enough. You know, I never doubted the depth of my love for you. I never questioned the fact that you and I are meant to be and that you were my forever person. I never, not even for a second, stopped loving you. We knew our love was always unconditional and incredibly strong. But this is not going to be me talking about the past. This is about me telling you how much I will always love you, how much you will always mean to me. My life really wouldn’t have been the same if I hadn’t met you. I wouldn’t be the woman I am if you hadn’t become a part of me. You inspired me to become the best version of myself. You did push me forward and you did believe in me, even when I lost faith and hope in myself. And I can never thank you enough for doing so. Thank you for being my rock and my biggest supporter. For being someone I could always count on and for being the man I could rely on with my life. Thank you for being my best friend in the whole world, my safe harbor and my peaceful haven. I can never thank you enough for feeling like home. I can never thank you enough for being so committed to us and our relationship. Thank you for making me fall in love with you every day of our marriage. For always reminding me what butterflies feel like. For never failing to surprise me and for remembering every little detail about me. Thank you for listening to me and for always being there for me. Thank you for taking care of me and for always taking my needs into consideration. Thank you for always having time for me and for always showing me that our marriage was the most important thing to you. Thank you for being the husband you were. For showing me that not all men are the same and proving to me that I should never lose faith in love. But most of all—thank you for loving me the way you did. Thank you for always encouraging my strength and independence. Thank you for being you. And thank you for always allowing me to be myself. I love you and I will always love you, for the rest of my life.
I Love You my Darling Husband, my Guardian Angel ♥️
