Ill never forget the day i had you i woke up it was like 7am i felt off so i went to soad in the tub thats when i noticed something so i called your nene an she told me to call your daddy cuz she couldnt leave right then so i called i him an he was freaking out got of the phone with me an called your nanna an i called the dr they told me to come in at 1 witch i did by the time we got there i was hurting they put me on the monitor by this point it hurt so bad I just cryed an cryed so they sent us to the hospital we headed ove there they got us checked in an started what they do we waited an waited an waited an then at about 10:45 or so you were born it was the best feeling i ever had my handsome 7lb 12oz baby boy you were a bundle of pure perfection i didnt sleep at all that night all i wanted to do was hold u i waited an waited an then finaly at like 7 am they brought you to me i just held you an didnt want to let go so many came to see you an just fell in love instantly then we took you home you did amazing you slept so good hardly cryed ate alot lol you loved to cuddle an sleep you loved your swing weeks went by lots of first visits first trip to highfalls first easter an then it happened the worsrt thing ive ever gone through we woke up at about 5 am i looked over an you had gone home i grabbed you as your daddy ran for help an hit the floor thats when nene came in and did everything she could for you but we just knew the fire dept got there an we he grabbed you ill never forget the look on his face as he told me theres nothing we can do i hit the ground an just cryed hrs went by an things became more real as you wouldve been waking up to eat cuddle an do what ever your little heart desired just like the day you were born i will never forget the day you went home at one point i went to the room after everything settled down an as i sat on the bed my arms got heavy like you were trying to tell me mommy its okay im still here well the next day we went to arrange what no parent should ever have to we picked the perfect spot the best bed for you to take your eternal nap your supper cute camo outfit the pictures stuffed animals video everything was perfect from so much help from family friends so much love you would be so proud so many showed up it was amazing then came the day to put you to rest it was so hard to watch my baby be put there but i survived it the next day was mothers day wouldve been my first an instead of being able to be with you i had nothing but empty arms an a blue bear that bear has gotten me through these 6 years its been so rough lost of pain heart ach heart break betrayl ive gone through so much its crazy but i am here today to say I LOVE YOU an im doing so good i have a page in your memory lighting candles to honor you.you have a beautiful sister who knows about you loves you life not the same without you booger but im doing the best i can an manage the best i know how youll never be forgotten an will always be loved no matter what i will keep your memory alive i love you son until we meet again <3