I’m having another really rough night missing you. I was driving tonight and one of the songs that we did cheer to came on the radio. I still remember some of the moves we did in cheerleading to that song, but it made me think of you and how I miss you sooo much. When I got home I looked all over Facebook to try and find that video of us cheering and I could not find it. That made me hurt so much more. It feels like a piece of me is gone and I can’t get it back. I’ve watched it over and over before, I don’t know why I can’t find it :’( Bella is doing really good she’s so smart is doing great in school aside from her adhd. Jace makes us laugh a lot and Ayden has become a little instigator lol but we’re of course still love him. He just has his moments as they all do. I miss you so much Laura. Still wish you were here. I love you sis! You would love Brae she’s such a caring very well behaved little girl. She’s my step daughter and I’m very happy to have her in my life as well as her dad. Brett has helped me with so much, I think you would like him too, I know Dan Byers did. Hopefully if God allows it one day Brett and I will be married. You will be with us in spirit, just wish you could have been in my wedding. So many things that could have been. :( Well I’m gonna try and get some sleep. I love you sooo much! GN sis <3