there's not a day that goes by, where i dont think about you

I'm just tired of being afraid. Is it wierd when you see someone for the first time and its your brothers best friend; a few weeks later they past away and your crying your eyes out? That happened to me. Me and my step mom went to giant eagle and she saw a friend of my brothers; and i never seen him before. A few weeks later we got a phone call that he past away. His name was Jason Sedlak and he was from Munhall. It happened on December 28th on Mooney Road. He was a passenger in a bad car accident. Its like i just seen him yesterday. i cant believe it. I cared a lot. I didn't know him, but i still cared. Also, Yesterday i was even in a car accident. It wasn't really bad. Atleast i didn't get hurt. I was on the way to my cousins and we were driving in Pittsburgh. We were on the park way. I started falling asleep and i closed my eyes. the next minute a car slammed into us. i think a 16 or 17 year old was driving. The whole front end of their car fell apart. Another car was involved. The ambulance had to come, but no body was hurt. They were going to towe the cars away. I was so scared, i refused to get out of the car. It was a parkway and the cars kept coming, i just didnt want to get hit. I haven't been so afraid in my life. It was a miricle that no one got hurt. I guess things happen for a reason. I'm 14 and im still young, im turning 15 this month. I already had a pretty crappy child hood, but i guess when i grow up, i would look back and say it's not that bad. Everything I've been through in the past, will make me into a stronger person in the future.

i miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one i want to share it with. I miss You when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when i laugh and cry ... because i know you are the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears dissappear.

December 13th would be the year after you past away. I just wish everything was a bad dream , but it was real. Rest In Peace Bestfriend