Almost 5 years has went by without u,feels like an eternity ,I often think about who u would be today.what goals u woulda reached.
I hear often that u will forever be with me,I've stopped looking for u its taken me this long.kills my heart but I now know I will never be able to hear ur voice or to physically see u..
My biggest fear is that people will forget u and how amazing u truly were..but none of that matters cuz I will never forget..
I'm sorry for not being who I should of been when u were here,please please forgive me.
I promise it was never from lack of loving u nor was it because of anything u have done.it was all me..
I am now who u always wanted me to be I'm far from perfect obviously.
I'm writing this because I need to make peace with u no longer being here I need to forgive God and not blaim him for u no longer being here.expecially if I plan on making it to heaven to see u once again.
Always watch over ur siblings and ur niece friends and family lesley dawn..and never forget the love I have for u runs deep.u were and will always be a blessing..
Rest easy sweet girl.
Mommas very last entry