The last post wasn't really done on Dec7th 2019, obviously because my mom, your daughter, is already in heaven with you and has been since February 15th. That's the same day we buried you, Grandma. When she passed away on that day it was the 1st thing I thought of. Mom died of a broken heart and even tho I know a lot of that had to do with dad passing away Sept 19th 2018, I feel I didn't help much. I tried so hard Grandma, to get her to love me, like you loved her. Don't get me wrong, I know she loved me but I think, at times, she still looked at me like me being born was where her life started going wrong. Before she passed away, I tried to tell her that I loved her, that I forgave her and I had a very long time ago. I tried to tell her that all I ever wanted to be close to her like you and her were. I guess it's just something about ME because my own daughter doesn't want that with me either. My relationship with my mom showed me that I WANTED to have a close mother/daughter relationship with mine, if I was ever blessed with one. Well, Christy is 23 now with a lil girl of her own and a son on the way. She hates me Gma, and I wish I understood why. Like I said, it has to be something I'M doing wrong so if you can find a way to show me what I need to do....like in a dream, I'm good at following directions. I don't want to still be trying to fix things with my daughter, like I was trying to with my mom, on my death bed. Will you kiss my mom for me? Tell her I miss her, and I'm sorry that she felt lonely and like none of us cared. All 3 of us cared. I guess we just thought we'd have more time, IDK. I love you Grandma. I know she's with the lord but make sure mom is having a good time. I'm sure you, mom and Gma Shannon are "Junkin" your lil hearts out. At least I hope so. I'd love to see my mom genuinely smile!