October 11, 2022
October 11, 2022
You know they say it gets easier and I do not agree. It is hard living without you. I heard your mom isn't doing too good. I know I should be going to see her more but it is hard sometimes making time. It feels like nanny all over. I don't want to see it again, it was hard mom. I love you and I know you are with me because I dream about every night and you are always there. It may not make sense to me but it gives me comfort seeing you. I hope one day I get to see nanny and dandy too. It is a good and a bad month. You would have been OMG how you would have hated it lol. I turned 40 in August and Caylee turned 13. I have Natalie that will soon be 21 and Jacob that is knocking on 10's door next month! I wish you were here. I wish Natalie could have seen you when she came back. Damn I know your watching us all but it isn't the same as you being here and me being able to talk to you about it. I love you mom. That is all for now. Shine on ya crazy.