June 6, 2023
June 6, 2023
Hi Daddy! Looking back at my tributes to you, I noticed I missed a few times to write, which really makes me sad. I hate to think I am too busy to write to you, at the anniversary of your passing and your birthday. I am at work, and I am not enjoying it at all. I just keep showing-up because I have to. It is not fulfilling, and I just do not know what to do. How are you!? What are you doing!? Where do you live!? Who are you seeing!? I know it is so much nicer than anything down here. Life is filled with so much disappointment here. I have been so discouraged. Is this something you know, or are residents in Heaven aware of our struggles here!? Mother is sick but I have visited. She seems to be doing well considering her health situation. Ariel, Daniel, Jacob, and Timothy, Jr. all seem to be doing well. I do stop by the cemetery each time I visit mother. I stop on the way in and on the way out. We need to put new flowers there for you. Terry is doing well. We have a new RV, and it has been a lot of fun. We just got back from camping in the mountains and had such a nice time. When we return home and go back to work it sucks the wind out of our sails. I miss you and wish you were here to visit. There is so much in life here I simply do not understand. You now have the mind of God and have all the answers. It is sad and lonely here, and I guess the truth is I am terrified of aging, getting sick, being alone, etc. I used to feel so much more confident...not so much now. I hope you are watching over me. I am sad, lonely and confused most of the time, but I keep chugging along. You are missed and thought about all the time. Happy birthday for this past year, 11/21/2022! I wonder how birthdays are done in Heaven, where you live!? I guess I will sign-off for now but will return to write more. Please, tell all our family and friends there "Hi" for me. It really would be neat to know where you live and what kinds of things you do each day. I am really sorry I was a selfish son in so many ways. I could have treated you so much better, and I am sorry I did not. I will spend some time with you, when I get home. We were away on Saturday, the anniversary of you leaving us. Sorry I did not write that day. Thank you, for being my Daddy. I love you!!!