I just wanted to say…

I LOVE & MISS YOU! 

Wish I could hold you right now… I know I would be rocking you while you sleep so peacefully. You were so handsome and precious! Thank God for blessing me with my 3rd heartbeat… My SonShine! Sending hugs and kisses to Heaven for you, Punkin! 

I’m having a moment right now thinking of you… I miss you so much! I’m so glad God blessed me with you! I will cherish the time we spent together! I Love You, My SonShine… My Sweet Baby Boy… My Punkin ❤️❤️❤️ ~Mommy

Jr… I was looking at the videos I made on the day I found out I was pregnant and I’ve been calling you a Miracle Baby since day 1! I knew you was going to be a Boy at 7-8 weeks pregnant too! Just know… It was a JOY to carry you for 8 months. Even though you arrived sooner than expected, giving birth to you was a wonderful surprise! I wish you were healthy… I would’ve loved to raise you! I was going to spoil you rotten! I use to say, “You can have whatever you want, Punkin!” And, I meant it!! You was the youngest and last baby for me. So, telling you “No” wasn’t going to happen, lol! I had plans on holding you all day, everyday…  And, that’s exactly what I did from the time you was born. I didn’t sleep so I wouldn’t miss any precious moments with you. I truly miss you! You’ll be “Mommy’s Little Best Friend” forever and always!I love you! ❤️

I’m still having a hard time without you, Punkin!
But, thinking of you keeps me in good spirits ❤️
Looking at your pictures and leaving messages helps too! Think I might transition to a journal… Something I’ll have forever! Never know what can happen to this page and all the writings I share that’s dear to me. In the meantime, you know Mommy is always here for you❤️ I love and miss you sooooo much!!! I need you…. But, I know you’re in a better place! 

~Sending hugs and kissesto the Heavens for My Sweet Baby Boy… My Tink… My BFF… My Punkin!

Blessed with your presence 11 days ago… Devastated by your loss 9 days ago… 

How am I still standing?! 

Well… I use your love and strength as a crutch to hold me up. I don’t know what tomorrow brings, but I pray you keep your hands on me. I know you’ll be with me in spirit today and that makes me happy!

Sending Hugs and Kisses to the Heavens for My Punkin! I Love And Miss You! ~Love, Mommy!

*Happy 4th of July*

Hi, Mommy’s Punkin… I wish you were here to celebrate the 4th of July weekend with us… It’s one of my favorite holidays! Having all of us together, watching fireworks would’ve been GREAT!! But, I know you’re in a better place!!! I’m sure you’ll be with us in spirit. Give Tannaw an extra squeeze for me, please! *Sending Kisses and Hugs to the Heavens… My Sweet Baby Boy ❤️

Heyyy Mommy’s Baby… My little, Punkin!❤️ It’s been a longgg week since you’ve been gone! I am heartbroken!! I miss you soooo much! But, I know you’re in a better place! I look at your pictures and videos everyday to help me cope with your absence. Thanks for helping me get through this difficult time. The strength and determination you displayed in two days being with us… I know weakness is NOT an option! Anyway, I know Tannaw is showering you with a lot of LOVE, lol! You are giving her a piece of me I know she’s been missing! I know her heart is happy! *Sending hugs and kisses*

Mommy is trying to stay strong for you, but it’s hard!I love and miss you so much! Sending hugs and kisses to the Heavens for ~My Sweet Baby Boy!

I LOVE YOU!❤️

Memories: 

The first cartoon I played for you was Cocomelon. 

I think it’s a popular cartoon amongst children nowadays…. 

You opened your eyes to watch it like a big boy, lol! I only played it for a few minutes, but the noise and bright colors captured your attention. I wanted to test your vision… So, I moved the phone from left to right and you turned your head in the same direction. Smart and nosy, lol!

At night time, I would play lullabies for you. I would hold you close to me and pat your back until you fell asleep. I miss special moments like this with you!

I love you, Punkin! ~Good Night!

Just know, I am so proud of you! You’re the true definition of a “fighter” and I admire your strength. I appreciate your determination to meet your parents, grandma and siblings. I miss the time we shared together! We formed a strong bond and I never wanted to let you go! You would lay in my lap while I ate my breakfast, lunch and dinner; We would do skin-to-skin because it kept you calm and relaxed; I would kiss your head and little baby hands while you were sleep. I would give anything to have another day with you! But, I know you’re in a better place, whole and healed!



I love you, forever and alway! ~Mommy