Henceforth i choose to remember you only from a happy and peaceful place cause those were what you represented while you were here with us. We shared loads of happy moments together as sisters and as a family, those happy memories are what i want to hang onto. Emma and papas death i grieved differently cause i got closure. But with you my sister, Its very hard never having gotten any closure as to why anyone would want you dead and knowing you were snatched away from us grotesquely by wicked men that probably still walk the surface of this earth. I never really was able to talk much about you all these years even when my sisters are randomly gisting about you (ild be mute for more than half the time) cause I've been going through bouts and different phases of grief... at first it was shock , then disbelief, to me missing you and crying a lot in hiding. And for some reason, stayed VERY angry about it all for years for reasons i can't even explain. But i will try not to be comsumed by all of that anymore. I miss you more especially cause a lot changed after you left and you didn't get to meet Ethan. Love you always sweet woman!