If we had one wish, it would be that you wouldn’t be so misses-You should be here- we will always love you and never forget

Six years mark and I still cant believe this has happened. It sucks how we don’t know how close we are with someone until you loose them. Good and bad I can say I enjoyed all of the time we had together and learned a lot from it. Much love and respect hope to see you again one day.

Mark, today makes year 6 since you left us here without your presence and still we love and miss you so very much. When you left it changed us all. I try to work through my hate for Marina and her actions every day but it's a long road I feel I will never reach the end of. I can't forgive her for your death and all the broken hearts she is responsible for. Your Mom talks about you all the time, she loves talking about you and I love to listen. Still waiting to here from Evelyn & Mae, it will happen. ❤❤❤

Today's the 6th anniversary of the day I lost you. Part of my heart and soul was also lost that day, but the good memories, and love from family and friends help me along the way. What we had will never die, you live within my heart, and I still feel you near.
Love,
Mom

Mark,
I keep trying to write down how I feel about losing you but the page stays empty. I guess that describes it "empty".
I miss you everyday in every way, always in my heart ♥♥♥

I Love You,
Mom

Hay Mark, I don't know how it works up there, but if you can, get your girls in touch. Your family's hangen tough, but just imagine

Me again!! It's 2018, can't believe it!! We got through another year without you and your girls

We miss you so much XXOO

Mark, guess who!! can't get away from me. Oh, another Christmas without you...they say it gets easier but it's not working for me. Haven't had any contact with Evelyn or Mae yet but I know it is coming, I pray for that day to come soon, real soon... In our hearts not only during the holidays but always. I love you and miss you Mark, you are always in our conversations, you live in us.

Sometimes I just really miss you my little brother. It's funny Run, but I can't for the life of me remember a single time that you really pissed me off! There had to have been times but nothing stands out. You are wise beyond your age, smarter than any test could tell & you have a heart of gold buddy. But it's your humor that bonded us. You can take it just as well as you dished it out & I miss you giving me shit! Well I hope The Almighty made you quit smoking but if he tries to change your wise ass-cracking personality then he just ain't doing his job. Talk to you later my friend. Orange & Blue forever.

Hay Mark, Patsy hit the nail on the head,we all miss you tons

Hi Mark, It's been awhile since I have left you a message! I just want you to know that you are missed and loved so much... Another Holiday season without you but you are in our hearts always. I love you Mark:) and miss you so.
PatsyXXOO

Hey Mark, guess who? Heavy duty this past weekend, I know you were there and saw it all, we just miss you so much, I know you know that too! Danielle made a wonderful speech at the ceremony ❤ I have to say it again...I am so proud to be your Mom's sister, she is the strongest person that I know, Danielle and Karen take after her. I love you and miss you every day. Patsy

Hi Mark, today is your Moms birthday, Danielle is fixing dinner for her! God I know how much she wishes you were here to join her you are with us all the time, in our hearts and souls. I love you Mark, people always say things will get easier and the sadness will lighten, I have not found that to be true, not yet anyways. You are missed terribly

I hope your mom feels a sign from you today, I know your sending her some. Can't think of a better gift, hearing from your girls would be nice. In time they'll see the truth.

Hi Mark!! I went to Irvine with your Mom this weekend and met several wonderful people who are grieving their loss as we are ours. I just can't tell you how much you are missed. I have your picture with your 49 Ford, before and after, it is now one of my treasures, you and your smile!! As always your Mom held strong, I love her so much. You are so lucky that she is your Mom. I think of you all the time, Love you.XX00

Hi Mark, I am sitting in my living room looking at your picture, it makes me so sad that you are not here with us, you are missed so much by so many, the whole situation is so screwed up but we have to live with it even though it is so hard. You live on in my heart, I think of you everyday and never forget how much we all love you.

Well it's Father's Day today, all I can say is "it would have been great to have you here along with your girls". I miss you & the girls so much.

♥XXOO♥

Mark, Monday on your birthday it was just too hard to put my feelings into words. I just want you to know that even with all the pain and heartache I carry of loosing you I would never trade being your mother. I hate this situation, and yet, I feel like the luckiest woman in the world to have had and loved you. 
♥♥♥ Love and miss you. ♥♥♥

I've been thinking of you, Mark. That isn't anything new. I think of you often. But on your birthday I was stricken with anger and grief as strong as when I first learned of you being taken from us. At times I feel like I have no right to feel as strongly as I do. I think only your mom knows how much I loved you. There are so many who miss you, many who loved you. You will always and forever be forever missed.

Mark, I know your birthday was yesterday, I thought about you all day long. Another long sad day for the family, we all just miss you so much and are so hurt that you were taken from us by that B----h! You are always in our conversations, we talk about you all time to keep your memories alive. I Love You Mark Barger.

Hi Mark... Happy Birthday! I still think of you and wish the best for your family XOXOXO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I know it's tomorrow, 33, could've been a hell of a party Miss you Mark

Hi Mark, I think about you all the time and your girls. Mother's Day is always such a tough day for your Mom, I know she misses you beyond words but always talks about you, always. No news from Marina about your girls but I feel it is getting close and soon they will want to see their family, I can't wait for that day to come. I Love You Mark, you are in my heart:) XXOO

Just wanted to drop in and let you know there isn't a day that goes bye that I don't remember all the good times we had. I know your there looking down on us all but it's still not the same without you around. Truly missed bro.

Another Easter's coming without you, that's wrong in so many ways. Being the day your dad passed it's hard enough, your sisters probibly could use a little extra watching over. I know your watching over all your girls....We all miss you and love you

♥♥♥ Saturday marked 5 years since that tragic day. The day part of me was lost, dreams for your future gone, a broken heart that will never go away. I have memories that bring me a smile and I will hold onto them as the years go by. I miss you as much now as the day you died.
I love you only as a mother can. ♥♥♥

5yrs ago, we were at the shop having fun, then later that day we ran into each other again and spoke briefly, If only I knew,that would our last.... later that night life changed for so many.....We miss you Mark

Mark you will always remain in our hearts.
A special smile, a special face, a special someone we can't replace,
We love you and Always will
You filled a space that no one will ever replace.
Your are guardian angel for your beautiful children
Love Loni Hickman

Mark,

Some days there are not words
to share the love and hurt I feel
Some days there is nothing to write
that will make the pain less real

So for today I will simply write:
I miss you more than words can say
I miss you more than poems express
I miss and love you every day



from: The Grief Toolbox

Another Christmas and new year, I know your here, we talk a lot. Some mite not understand, but I don't let science interfere with my believes LOVE YOU MARK, MERRY CHRISTMAS, STAY CLOSE

Hi Mark, You have been on my mind a lot lately, these Holidays are very tough for us without your presence. You sat with us all at the table on Thanksgiving, Your Mom had your jacket on her chair and you will be in all of our thoughts and hearts at Christmas. God, it's still so hard to believe this has happened. You live on in our hearts and always will. Love you and miss you so so much. Love, Patsy

Lost a lot of amazing people like you in 2012. Where ever you are, I hope you and Tom are building hot rods. Love you guys.

Hay Mark, there's a tree, in a canyon set up as a memorial, nice place. There's rocks with peoples names painted on them. You know, your well represented on special stones and things hanging in the tree. Lots of love and feelings... A real special place

Hi Mark, today is no special day other than thinking about you and what we lost. You would think that the grief would get easier to deal with but I guess I just haven't gotten to that point and doubt that I ever will.
The family is still waiting for the day to re-unite with your girls, especially your Mom, I know it is going to happen, the big question is when. I love you and miss you all the time. Patsy XXOO

Happy birthday brother. Love and miss you and the girls.

I did not forget your birthday Mark. You have been on my mind every day all month. I am struggling with words to post. My heart is heavy with missing you and knowing how your whole family is missing you. The emotions are as strong today as ever. You truly are forever missed.

Dad always talks about the wonderful man and heart of gold that is Mark. We love you and know that you are looking over your loved ones always. Love Loni

Danielle, Karen and I have a rotating Sunday dinner weekly since you've been gone, a constant reminder of keeping family close because you never know when they will be gone. Just as every day, today on your birthday you are so missed and loved by us. Their hearts can't bear to visit this website but know they are always thinking of your and the girls.

Today's the races at borona, supost to be good, funny cars, and top fuel.Got some memory's from the last time we were there.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK...I know it's tomorrow, but we'd be there today

Hay Mark, you'd be 32 this birthday, a special year, year of the deuce. I'm sure it could've been a hell of a party. I know it's early, but it's coming..... HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY.....

I've tried writing for about two weeks but it's been too difficult. All that I've written before is still true, nothing has changed.
"No matter what anybody says about grief, and about time healing all wounds, the truth is, there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken".

I heard a song today that maybe fits.....It's been a long day without you, my friend,...We'll tell you all about it when we see you again....

Today, 20th of February is another Day of Remembrance to you, Mark; however, it is also truly a day of infamy. So much injustice, and so deeply felt by so many innocent people, young and old. We love you, Mark.

The McGuires

His beautiful spirit rests in heaven but he will always be with us in our hearts. We love you all, Hickman Family

Just wanted to say miss you brother. Four years, it feels like yesterday. More and more time is passing but you will never be forgot.

Oh Mark, No one will ever forget you, how could they? We keep going day to day but you are and always will be part of it. We all miss and love you so. Hopefully some day soon we will get to see your girls again. What a gift it would be to your Mom. Never forgotten and always loved.
Patsy XXOO

I don't want you to think that it is only in February, May or the holidays that I think of you, Mark. I think of you often and I'll always miss you. To add to the pain of never seeing you again, your daughters are missing out on the best grandma in the world. That is sad on top of sadness. Oh, how I miss your handsome smiling face, and quick wit Mark!

In 2 days it'll be 4 years, ....2 years ago LaRee posted time doesn't heal,... she was right,... 2 years ago your Mom posted how empty she felt without you,...that also hasn't changed,...Stay close Mark, and keep looking after your mom and loved ones...WE MISS YOU

Maybe Christmas, he thought, doesn't come from a store. Maybe Christmas.... perhaps.... means a little bit more....Dr. Seuss.... To bad we didn't hear from the girls....Morena !!!!