December 19, 2013
December 19, 2013
Matt, it is December 19th, 2013, 2:41am and I just had Christmas at Donna's with her family. They made me feel such a big part of their event as they always do. We talked of you and I shared pictures of you and yes, I cried. I cry for you almost everyday, I just can't help it, I guess I always will. I miss you so much. You taught me how to love like this, but you never taught me how to stop. I just can't accept your death. I cling to every memory, every picture, every card, every scrap of paper you wrote on. Anything that might help me to feel your presence. I think I'm going crazy. I didn't realize how much grief can emotionally change a person's life and the will to live it without their child. Goodnight my son, I love you. Mom