mama i have to laugh sometimes cause the older i get the more i not only look like you do things you use to but i find myself sounding just like you!!! it gets on my kids nerves cause every where i go i wanna talk to people !! not caring if its a bum on the street, crazy person, a vip or just a complete stranger everybody has a story and im nosey and want to hear it but my problem is my heart is also just like yours and it hurts for everyone and i wanna save the world especially my family brothers, sisters, kids, nieces, nephews, grandson ,cousins, friends and yes even the strangers too and it hurts when i cant.!! but just wanted to let you know i see a lot of you in me, and remember going places with you and the whole town knew you and loved you and just had to talk to you and i would get frustrated cause a trip to the grocery store should never take that long lol now my kids do that to me!! they say don't stop and talk just hurry!!! and of course all i can do is smile cause i know exactly where i get it from. mama my life is about to get a little painful and im going places ive been afraid to go for to long now but i know i must to get where i wanna be! so please you ,daddy, and my big brother and Jesus stay close to me and help me along the way!! and get through this! watch over my babies, and give them patience and strength to get through this with me so i can finally be the strong one for them again and a mother they can be proud of. i have a hard long road ahead of me mama but i can do this martins home now to help with lill tracie and im ready to make you all proud!! im ready to live again and let you daddy and my brother rest peacefully! your memory lives on in my heart forever mama as well as daddys and ricks if you see me crying mama don't worry its okay!! their cleansing tears and i promise i will be okay!!! i have to finally deal with this so i can move forward !! i love you with all my heart and soul!!! and i know you daddy and rick are here with us still im not crazy, i feel you , i feel your love,and i see the little signs tell my big brother , i feel him also and yes im going to a meeting!!!!! lol