Hi I'm lil Michael dad big Michael. U know every one says that time heals every thing and the pain I felt on the day of his passing would get easier over time well i can say that's definitely not true it's been 13 years and the pain just gets worse with time sometimes all i want is to been able to die that day I had to lay him to rest i think about that day over and over again and again every day that he has left us to go home to heaven I'm asking my self every day why did I not do something different that day if only I had then he would still be by my side and my life may not be so turned around and i could still have my baby boy with me yeah i may seem fine to everyone but to tell the truth I'm not. Deep down inside all I want is to die so I can go be with my baby boy. Daddy loves you hot rod always and forever.