Hi Mike, Its been a while since I left a message. On the eve of the 5th anniversary I decided it was time. I promised myself I wouldn't write anymore. Whatever I had to say to you I believe you can hear me regardless. However, as they say, I felt the need to put pen to paper. It is also said it can be healing, and I do believe that as well, so here it goes, my letter to you. Dear Michael, For your birthday this year, rather than leave a message, I decided as a gift to you, I would torture myself and listen to your favorite, Bruce Springsteen on Sirius. As you know I was not a big fan but decided I would listen to him all day. Well I am still not a big fan, like you were but I honestly have to say I enjoyed him more than I thought I would. Maybe because I did it for you, who knows. I got a kick out of a song called Red Headed Woman and also liked Loose Change. My favorites still stands as Pink Cadillac and Born to Run. His latest album is called Letter to You. I have not heard the whole album yet but it got me to write a letter to you. I still miss you. I cannot express the loss and empty feeling I have in my heart for you. Even though I had 4 older brothers, you were my big brother. The one I would pal around with. You could make me laugh until I couldn't breath. You could make me so angry I wanted to choke you, and you even had the power to break my heart, yet I loved you and still do! I could listen to you tell stories all day, recite the Spiderman song, share your opinions and express your thoughts on current events. You loved to read all the N.Y. papers, including the funnies and I made sure you had them each day in the hospital. You were a true blue New Yorker. A good old Brooklyn boy. All of that and more wrapped up our long time friendship. I am so thankful that we shared time together. You were not only funny and crazy, but courageous, warm, sensitive and considerate. and those that knew you well knew that. I sure did. So on the eve of 5 years gone physically from my life, know I will always think of you and I wish life was kinder to you and you were kinder to yourself. Forever your younger sister. Forever your friend. Forever the playmate from my childhood. Forever my protector. Forever my big brother, and forever my Roy and I your Dale! Helene...P.S. I still always think of you for each sunrise and when I put my feet in the sand!