Hey you,
Saw something yesterday dated the same day you passed and it made you weigh heavy on my mind. Not that it doesn't from time to time on a regular basis- I mean, who can forget 7 years of friendship- but this time it sunk so deep into my core, it invoked a crying so painful it felt like a wound freshly reopened.
But one of the best things happened for me last night. I dreamt of you standing so close beside talking to me, the look of you was so refreshing. Your skin, nappy hair, your height that was a little more than mine, your bandy legs, your smile and your laugh! We were laughing about something like old times but then it came to my mind, "Aren't you dead? This is just a dream.". So I asked you to go do something so you would walk away from me because I said to myself that chances are you wouldnt come back and I'll know this all was an illusion.
But guess what? You came back! And you stood up beside me again smiling. And I said "I thought you were gone. I thought you were dead". Then you're like "Nah, that's not true, I'm right here." And for that moment I relished in such hope and said "See! I knew it wasn't true! It was just a prank." And we laughed.
Then I woke up from my dream and my heart sunk that I had to enter another reality. The harsh one.
But then in my mind I received a revelation- words so clear in my head the voice said "Mikhail CAN always live forever because he lives in your heart."
And I burst out in tears of sadness but more of joy. So I'll carry you with me Miki til we see each other again. Rest easy.
Love,
Your sister from another mister.