September 14, 2022
September 14, 2022
My beautiful wifey,
Damn, it’s been so long! The struggle is still real!!!! There is so much I want to say, so much has happen over the years……
One thing I know, is I still cry for you to this day!!!!! I’ve struggled still to this day and to this day it feels like yesterday so that’s how the pain is still…..!!! I’m lonely for you! Some times I still am so mad at you, we were supposed to have forever together not that forever isn’t still I just never could have imagined it would of been time together me here in hell you in heaven! Anger over you and what could of possibly really happen still resides in my soul My Love it just doesn’t make sense and I have and always will have to call bullshit, then mom wtf!!!! Love is hard as fuck as fuck!! I’m going through such a hard time boo! I need you and even though your not gone gone you’re still not here!!! I know I haven’t written in awhile doesn’t say I don’t think of you always!!! Man the work has changed! I have 2 more babies Agalia is 5 and Jax is 2. Of course I still see all my kids minimal the worst part is they took Jax bc cps l lied about my drug patch but you think when I proved it and got the CPS case dismissed did they gave my son back, NO!!! It’s been killing me I don’t understand and that’s the first child of mine that I was able to stay clean for!!!! I guess that’s how the system works and my luck, that’s exactly how it would be….. that happen 1 1/2 years ago. At that time I got 5 misdemeanors bc I beat up his dad twice and he took him from me! Haven’t been able to be sober since, Shit I was even on run in Billings living in the streets for 9 months!!!☹️ Lost 2 pregnancies almost died had a temperature for 12 days peaking 106.7 I was for sure I wasn’t gonna make it, which was scary af on one hand, but on the other I wanna come home fuck I wanna!!! I have some seriously bad health issues, like fuck!!! On the other hand I don’t care, death would be a gift I’d be with you!!!
I don’t wish my kids to lose their mommy and then again I am hurting so bad I’m tired I’m ready to go!!!! Boo, I need you please!! Come around see me Misty cause Fuck life is swallowing me whole and I can’t handle the pain being so heavy, but what am I saying it’s always been……. I’m back home in Glasgow now and I still hate it here!!! The world is so empty and my cold Anyways beautiful wife I need you to come see me some how some way please Boo! Your still the wife of my life and you still never forgotten!
Your wife forever,
Damn, it’s been so long! The struggle is still real!!!! There is so much I want to say, so much has happen over the years……
One thing I know, is I still cry for you to this day!!!!! I’ve struggled still to this day and to this day it feels like yesterday so that’s how the pain is still…..!!! I’m lonely for you! Some times I still am so mad at you, we were supposed to have forever together not that forever isn’t still I just never could have imagined it would of been time together me here in hell you in heaven! Anger over you and what could of possibly really happen still resides in my soul My Love it just doesn’t make sense and I have and always will have to call bullshit, then mom wtf!!!! Love is hard as fuck as fuck!! I’m going through such a hard time boo! I need you and even though your not gone gone you’re still not here!!! I know I haven’t written in awhile doesn’t say I don’t think of you always!!! Man the work has changed! I have 2 more babies Agalia is 5 and Jax is 2. Of course I still see all my kids minimal the worst part is they took Jax bc cps l lied about my drug patch but you think when I proved it and got the CPS case dismissed did they gave my son back, NO!!! It’s been killing me I don’t understand and that’s the first child of mine that I was able to stay clean for!!!! I guess that’s how the system works and my luck, that’s exactly how it would be….. that happen 1 1/2 years ago. At that time I got 5 misdemeanors bc I beat up his dad twice and he took him from me! Haven’t been able to be sober since, Shit I was even on run in Billings living in the streets for 9 months!!!☹️ Lost 2 pregnancies almost died had a temperature for 12 days peaking 106.7 I was for sure I wasn’t gonna make it, which was scary af on one hand, but on the other I wanna come home fuck I wanna!!! I have some seriously bad health issues, like fuck!!! On the other hand I don’t care, death would be a gift I’d be with you!!!
I don’t wish my kids to lose their mommy and then again I am hurting so bad I’m tired I’m ready to go!!!! Boo, I need you please!! Come around see me Misty cause Fuck life is swallowing me whole and I can’t handle the pain being so heavy, but what am I saying it’s always been……. I’m back home in Glasgow now and I still hate it here!!! The world is so empty and my cold Anyways beautiful wife I need you to come see me some how some way please Boo! Your still the wife of my life and you still never forgotten!
Your wife forever,