GARY , EVERYONE KEEPS TELLING ME IN TIME ,THE HURT WILL HEAL. BUT THATS NOT TRUE . I CAN'T FORGET .AND I WONDER CONSTANTLY , WAS YOU IN PAIN , WAS YOU WISHING IN YOUR MIND , THAT I WAS THERE . WHAT WAS YOU DEALING WITH. YOU WERE ALONE . THE ONLY THING I GOT TOO GO ON IS THAT YOU AND MOM , FINALLY GET TO HANG OUT , AND NOBODY CAN WINE /OR CRY ABOUT IT . ALL I CAN SAY IS EVEYTHING HAS CHANGED . AND I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO,MUCH . THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN COPE . I PRAY YOU ARE LOOKING DOWN TO ME ,AND KNOWING I MISS YOU !!!!!!!!! NEVER REALIZED HOW MUCH FUN WE HAD ,HOW CLOSE WE WERE ,, WELL YES I REALLY DID , IT'S JUST LIKE A NIGHTMARE . JAKEB HAS SUCH A ROUGH TIME , LITTLE RANDI HAS A VERY HARD TIME , IF ONLY YOU KNEW HOW IMPORTANT YOU ARE TO US . I FEEL LIKE MY TWIN IS GONE !!!!!!! GARY JR ,JUST ALWAYS KNOW HEART / SOLE WE ARE LOVING YOU . I WAS NOT LEAVING YOU ALONE , I JUST WAS BEING A BIG SISTER !!!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY BOY ......