We love and miss you so much Nick. I really did not think I could go on after you shot yourself but I' m still here! We think and talk about you every day and I can' t wait to see you in heaven! I love you with all of my heart and I miss you just as much. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. One day I hope you' ll tell me why you hurt yourself. You were the light of my life and I still don' t understand. Maybe it is not for me to understand but only God!