I would like to say while we may not understand? We try cope and deal with all of life's ups and downs to the best of our abilities. Take time for yourself, grieve, and never forget the beautiful memories you shared. Stay close as family and continue to live life lovingly giving to those that may need a word of encouragement, a hand up, or even a hug. Know that loving other's even if it's a stranger is a way to keep Nikki's spirit alive and surrounding you! While she may be gone in the physical sense she will always be around you spiritually if you believe. I just like to think this physical life is but a stepping stone to something far more special that lays ahead of each of us! Death will come to us all eventually but it is then we can be with those who have gone before us!