Thinking of you and wishing I could talk to you right now. I really could use a hug and a long talk at 4am like we used to do. I wish you could meet the man I am going to soon be married to. He's a good man and takes good care of us, his family. I go shopping with his Mom Mom in the same places I used to shop with you and I cant help but talk about you the whole time. My thoughts always revert back to you most days and I share with others all the good times we shared. Losing you was beyond the hardest thing I've experienced in my life yet. Who ever said time heals all is a liar and never really experienced love. Miss you and love you!

Hey Patsy How are you doing you are probably doing good I miss you and want to see you again.I wanted to say I Made it to 7th grade! I Have 5 more years.See ya when I die and talk to you later on this.

I've heard people say you don't know pain until you've lost a parent or a child. I've never lost a child and hope I never do but I have lost both parents and it is so true. Losing my dad the pain was real, losing my mother the pain was unbearable. When you died I feel like I lost my past, no one to tell me things I did when I was little, how I acted or just to brag about how beautiful I was as a child. Kristen and kelli miss you so much, they talk about you all the time. I think I've finally come to terms with the fact that you are gone but it doesn't stop me from missing you. I know you are in the best place but I hate to admit I feel selfish and want you here. I hope you know I will never stop missing you and loving you for the rest of my life. I will see you in my dreams and every time I close my eyes.I will live in the comfort that I will see you again but until then God will keep you in his loving arms.

Hi Patsy! Happy 1st Angelversary. Hard to believe that it has been a year already, God it feel like it was only yesterday. Time has passed but the aching in my heart has not. I still mourn you deeply. I miss you so much. I have been so lost this pass year without you. I still yearn to hear your voice, and touch you once more. I pray that I can feel you around me to help me cope with Nicholas and Lewis and just life in general. I was a hard day for me today. I could not bear to think of you even though you were in my every thought. I miss you and hope that you have found heaven all that you wanted it to be. I look forward to that day.

Hi Patsy! I had a hard time making it past your birthday yesterday. I miss you today just as much as I did when you died...perhaps even more. I know that you are spending a very special birthday this year with Jesus and all that have passed before you while we are here still celebrating you. I really miss you and our little chats and how I could call you when I needed you.. I really need you now and have for awhile now. I miss running to the phone when I needed someone to talk to or someone to vent with. I have people to run to now, but it is not the same...you knew me soooooooo well. I think of you often and just try to get by day by day,,, some days are good or truefully, as well as can be expected. others are horrid.

Mom, the day you died was the worst day of my life. There are times i still don't believe it's real. We all know our parents will pass at some point but i guess we just don't think about it and that is how we get through. I never thought i would feel the total emptiness and loss i feel. When my Dad died i felt sad and empty but the saddest and emptiness i feel with your passing is something i can't describe. I picked up your ashes today and brought you home where you are loved, i have you back with me again. I hope you know how much i love you and how much i miss you. I stand in your room and look at your things with new meaning now. I touch your pillow and smell your perfume. I put on your ring and sit on your bed. Oh god when will i ever feel better again, when will my heart be whole. When will this pain subside. Mom i know you will never leave me because i hold your memory tight within me. I will NEVER say goodbye, i will only say see you later because i know you will meet me with open arms when it is my turn and i will stand there with tears in my eyes and simply say "Mom i missed you so much and i love you". Until we meet again Mom.

It is always hard saying goodbye to one who meant so much to you. You know that with them went a part of your heart. You long to hear their voice, feel their touch and feel their very presense. You recall all the special times you shared with them and cherish them even more.  You long for just one more day. I know that feeling too well. I did not just lose my Aunt, but my very best friend. She was there when no one else was. She was there for every joy in my life, and there with every pain. She was the only constant in my life -- other than my mother (in some ways the same, in others sooo different). I knew I could count on her to listen and understand and kick me in the pants when I really needed it. I will be so lost without her though. Where do you turn when there is no way to turn. The hardest thing I ever had to do was say Goodbye to her. I go through times when I realize she is gone. but then it is like she is just away and will return. I will be happy when my head and heart get back in sync, but until then it is day to day.

To Patsy -- this is my "good-bye" or better yet --See you later!:

 I want you to know that this has to be the hardest thing I ever had and needed to do. You have been sooooo much a special part of my life for so long. You were not just my Aunt, but you were my BEST FRIEND! You were always there when I needed you and you always LISTENED -- you listened without judging. You told me things I needed to hear --some good, some bad. You kicked me in the pants many times when it was needed and other times, you were there with open arms, open heart and ALWAYS with love and acceptance. You were my life and there is not going to be a day that goes by that I will not miss you and long for you and wish you were still here.  I feel that I will be lost for a long time. But I take comfort in knowing that you are out of pain and you are really where you wanted to be. You are among the angels now, love, and I know that you are sitting up there in heaven with your hands in grandmom's and Uncle Franks and smiling. You always said that you could not be there for everyone at one time...Well, Love, now you can...and I also know that I also have comfort in knowing that I have a very special Guardian Angel looking over me (still) and keeping me in line. I will miss you everyday but I WILL see you one day but until then it is "See You Later, Alligator!"  I Love You Patsy -- Always Have, Always Will !!!!!