Good Morning, My Love, Happy Birthday! You would have been 74 years old today! Mam, we are getting old. Ha Ha! I miss you so much! I know that you will have the best birthday ever. How could you not? You are in paradise with those on the other side and Jesus and the father. Things down here are in the potty to say it nicely. Lewis's Parkinson's is getting worse. Nicholas wants to throw his life down the toilet. My life is just in turmoil. There are days when I don't know where to turn and feel so alone and helpless. I try to have faith, but it is getting harder to keep holding on to it. I need a break. Physically, mentally, emotionally and even spiritually. Right now, I have decided to give up teaching. Life circumstances and the passion I once had for teaching has been diminished. I feel that I cannot be everything for everyone. I am getting lost in the shuffle. Some days I feel like I am just existing, the days just go by. Finish a day, sleep, and start over again. Sorry, this is YOUR happy day. I just needed to vent, as I always do so easily with you. I guess I could tell you something good that is coming up. Well, actually, a couple of things. Mom is coming to visit us from Alabama on March 4th. She will stay with us for 4 days. That is good because I miss her. On March 11th, Lewis, Nicholas, and I are going to be going on a Cruise to the Carribean. I am looking forward to it, if not for the break. When I get back, I need to look for a job. Amongst the job I already have taking care of Lewis and Nick. It feels like no job is good enough or makes enough money for Lewis sometimes, but you know what, a job is a job. I really do not care anymore. I am blessed every day I wake up! Some days are harder to get through, but I am herer. I love you and miss you so much. I have to go for now, the little devil (Nicholas) is about to wake up and take him to school. Lewis is still sleeping (must be nice) so I can enjoy a little peace and quiet. ha ha! I love you always...and they do too. hug and kisses and tons of Birthday wishes! xoxoxo