Welp bubba it's been 8 years and it still feels like yesterday... when I look back and remember that amazing smile you always had! You're my big brother and that'll never change.. things feel so different without you around. I hope when you look down from heaven that you're proud of your little sister. I've worked so hard to get to where I am today. There may be bumps in the road that I've had to go over but sooner or later this road will smooth out and my life will get to where it needs to be. You always knew what to say when I talked to you. One of our last conversations on the patio in slaton will be a conversation I will keep close to my heart. I wish I would of known you were saying your goodbyes... maybe then I could of been on your level. I knew once you set your mind to something there was no changing it. Damn... your little sister is 20 now. That's crazy. I would never have thought I'd have to say bye to you so young. To loose a sibling is something but to loose my big brother is a different story. I remember the last hug I got from you that crisp Wednesday morning that you got to Gagas from the train station. You had a huge smile on your face and I can't wait to walk through heavens gates and see that again. I love you so much bubba. Don't ever forget that! I'll make sure you continue to be proud of me.... RIP Patrick.